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2012-02-05T06:26:00.001-08:00

Roller blade with da girls!

Ok its my first time roller blading.....*awkward* Hmm.
I fell down many many times though, Bokmay was guiding me all along and i injured her hand because i keep grabbing tightly, she got bruise /: Oh well.......
Had my favourite seafood "La-la" for dinner! Whole plate by myself! <3 Went over to town for Yoga, i swear it's really tiring, had hot bath too! My whole body was totally jelly, no energy to move at all, and expected the next day to have muscle cramps, so today when i woke up both my shoulders couldn't even move at all! :( But i likey the feeling!!! Nice what no meh?! I always told my friends that i love the feeling of having muscle cramps, especially tights! Hehehe, they called me crazy :( Aww. But anw, had a fun time with DoggieEunice on bus teaching her hokkien too, making me laugh like mad. Tango with her at night before sleeping, she screen shot many unglams :( Shit. Gonna have roller blade again on next coming sat! ^^

2012-01-23T04:44:00.001-08:00

Happy Lunar New Year!!

Hi guys!~
Ok i was kinda slow for the updates because i was lazy and also busy with school work recently. Hehe so sorry about that.

This year CNY is really boring, i must say. Steamboat, visitings, get red packets, steamboat, visitings, get red packets. School starts. LOL.
Nothing much about it too, just that the zodiac of dog are unlucky this year, pray more okie 94's people! All my piggy friends are so happy because zodiac of pig this year are very lucky this year, because of O's level :( Walao......
So how was you guys cny? Fun?

My outfit for first day of cny!

Didn't take photo of my outfit on the second of cny because i didn't have time to, feel tired when i reach home and straight "BOM" on my bed after showering.

On the sixth day of cny, we had steamboat at my place with all my lovelies!

And after steamboat we went for movie, "We not naughty" ! Me and DoggieEunice cried :( Xiasuay. But the little boy in the movie makes me think of my bro, my mum used to be like this too. LOLOLOL. Had our dinner at Ajisen, and then headed to Eunice's house for visiting, at 10plus, i know it's late. LOL. Went home around 11plus, suddenly i feel damn paranoid and having my moodswing. LOL, ok lame kthxbye.

2012-01-13T16:10:00.001-08:00

USS! ♥♥♥

Ok sorry for the super late update because my blogger are having some problems, but its now fixed! Well, let me start off with my cutie photos...... *Okay.... just kidding.

So basically it's obvious enough that i went to USS, remember my last year birthday present was a USS ticket from my pigs and doggie? We dragged till now it's because it's raining on my birthday as it's december, the raining season :( Anw, its not a bad thing actually. As O's level D&T theme was amusement(which is a sucky theme), so i can take this opportunity to take photos for the research! ^^
Went to play the roller coaster, each colour twice and i swear when the first time i ride i was so so so afraid that the pressure would pull my head off, LOL. And the blue ride has a part that totally turn everyone upside down, i've got this fear that the lock might drop off and i would fly out, LOL. Me and my stupid thinking. My leg got jelly after that, went to play other rides, had our lunch and then got pulled by both pigs for another red and blue ride each again. This time round i feel even scared, i dont know why. I was afraid till when the rides turns i shouted "Mummy, i dont want play anymore!" LOL, this is retard. Lucky no one heard it /: Althought it's just 30 secs, i feel that it's damn long and thinking when would it stop. Bokmay and Gina totally enjoying it like mad that they played it for 5 times for red and 4 times for blue, 9 times in total. Because i felt giddy so i sat downstairs and wait for them, hehehe.

Look at those turns of roller coaster, with a super super super fast speed :(

Bought four 'Best Award' trophy for my siblings and parents, hehehe, find those trophy damn cute!

After finish all the rides, we felt tired and hungry, went over to vivo for dinner and head back home. My back was ache and feel damn tired, luckily father request to send me back when i reack cck! After a long fun day, i miss holidays alrd :( Damn, when it's dec holiday i was kinda excited for school reopen, and now i miss holidays :( Sigh...

Ending photos with my piggies!

2012-01-01T07:54:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year!

Hi people, ok this is quite a late update as im waiting for my friend to upload the photos and she just uploaded it ytd.
Hehe ok so, I went count down with my friends Gina, Eunice, Bokmay, Steven and Changwei at Marina. On the 31st Dec i was suppose to be at home sleeping, but i woke up at 3pm plus by my dad's call, telling me that he allows me to go countdown with my friends when Bokmay, Eunice, Gina, Changwei and Weibin are alrd at East Coast Park cycling :( Its been so long ever since I cycled... So i went to get prepared, called Steven up and meet him to meet up with others. You know, i really hate waiting for people, especially guys. But luckily Steven was fast, i called him at 6.30pm and he told me that he was just about to bathe, so i thought he's gonna make me wait very long but no, I texted him at 7pm and he told me he's alrd done preparing! Hehehe, went to meet him at LotOne, took cab over to Bedok and look for Gina, Bokmay and Changwei first. Waited for them to bathe after their whole day of cycling. And then bused over to esplanade, so many people that i literally got pissed off by the crowds. Pushing or bang onto me, and it's too many people that i start sweating, i hate sweating ALOT. Because i would get really really really pissed off! But on that day i tried to control my temper, its New Year right! ^^ I kept quiet all the way, but giving fucked up face lah /:
Around 10pm plus Eunice came to meet us at Suntec, gave Steven his birthday cake and bashed him! HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVEN! Yes, his birthday was on 1st of Jan! Lucky boy ^^ But we aren't giving him the cake on 12am sharp because we have to go to another place to countdown :(
And in between, my mum called and ruined my mood. I fucking cried in the puclic, feel like an idiot. It's new year and she have to spoiled my day. But was ok after that, walked over to Marina for countdown and fireworks! ^^ Prettyea~
And then we had our supper at Hong Kong Cafe! After that Gina, Eunice and Changwei went back to Gina's place at Bedok to take their stuffs as they were going to Bokmay's house for mahjong, while I cab home tgt with Bokmay and Steven. Waited for cab for 1 hour plus, i got so fucking impatient that i started to give black face again, LOL. Ok my attitude sucks, i hate waiting. Finally reached home, while all of them were playing mahjong till next morning at Bokmay's place, power or what.
Photos are below, i know it's very less ah, im so sorry. Because Bokmay went to delete those photos i took with her, she thinks that she doesn't look nice in it, while i thinks that i look damn cute in every photos. *I like to say myself cute when my hyper mode turn on* Lol. Kthxbye.

2011-12-26T12:06:00.001-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS! *Belated

Hellooooo, merry christmas people! Hehe, well, i did celebrate Christmas this year, just that it didn't turn out the way i wanted to be.

On the Christmas eve, my pretty sisters decided to have steamboat at Lyn's place. So ok, waiting for Adeline to end work while im at home relaxing. Hehe. Went out at 11pm plus to meet Adeline at Woodlands and waited for Jiani to go over to Lyn's place tgt, the most retarded thing is that we lost out way :( We made Wenloong to make all his way down from Lyn's place to fetch us and he told us that we're turning one big round from interchange because two more stops later we are going back to Woodlands interchange again, LOL. So we walked back to Lyn's place, everyone was waiting for us :( Hehe. Finally steamboat time! Thought i could really enjoy it, but my mum spoiled everything. After steamboat we watched ghost movie, but again, my mum spoiled it. Rushing me home and everything, so me, Adeline and Jiani cab home at 3am plus while others continue staying at Lyn's place. Reached home and i didnt sleep, i stayed awake until morning 7am plus and finally gets tired.

Woke up at 11am, get preapred and meet Elaine and Adeline at Bukit Panjang, went to Daiso for their cookies equipments at Bukit Panjang Plaza. Then cab to TiongBahru Plzaz to meet Peiling, its been really really long ever since i saw her. I've got a few months didnt see her alrd! Had our steamboat, tomyum! My favourite, hehe. Eat until we're all full, then bused to Town to do their shopping. Half way through Peiling went back first, and then Elaine's husband drove me and Adeline home! Happy girl because i had steamboat! :P

2011-12-20T07:50:00.000-08:00

17th's birthday for me! ^^

Hehe, hi guys! Sorry for not posting recently, because i was really busy! So... ytd i've gotten back my results, and guess what! I fucking passed my N's! To be honest, i really cant believe it, seriously. I thought i'd failed it because i didnt put in my 100% effort and hardwork into it, i just merely read through some notes and forced myself to rememeber everything, worst thing is that i studied last min! Yes, its last min! Ohmy...... but i still manage to pull it through, so now im promoted to secondary 5, i told myself once school start i must really really study hard, i dont want to regret, i want to enter poly.

*Hopefully i can really do it and not procrastinating*

Ok so, i thinks that passing my N's was the best present for me because i got my results on the 19th and 20th is my birthday! ^^
I thought it would be really fun, i mean, im not saying that my friends who helped me celebrate are not fun but, we were suppose to go to USS. But due to the weather we changed of plan and went to vivo for dinner instead, pictures will do all the talkings because im lazy to eleborate but yupp, my friends surprised me with cake and had our dinner at Thai express! :) (I know i've gain lots of weight as you can see from all the photos that my arms are fat and i have double chin, luckily didnt take my full body. Im sure my tights and tummy will scare the freak out of everyone, sigh..) Ok, some photos might look similiar because Gina that idiot pig keep on spamming the camera snap button on me when they start surprise me with cake till the end when i used my mouth to take out the candle. Some photos of me are really unglam but well, bear with it ok? ^^ Ready for the photo spam below?(I deleted some photos because it makes all my dec blog post missing) Hehe.

Really gotta thank Gina, Eunice, Bokmay and Changwei(our colleague) for helping me to celebrate my birthday though USS plan fail. But anw, the present they got for me was paying for my USS ticket, hehehe. Sweet or what? ^^ USS postpone to Jan!
Speaking of Jan, school starting soon in one more week plus? Gotta really work hard for my O's! Goodluck people! ^^ Bye. *Pardon me for the mess of those photos, i really did my best to arrange it but still failed.*

2011-12-08T00:58:00.000-08:00

I wanna tell you how much i need you back in my life, im sorry for getting used to your presence that now i feel weird without you.

I just edited my blog heading above, hehehe and i feel satisfied although it cant be properly view using iPhone :( Anw, i had my steamboat ytd with Jovin and Adeline! Hehehe, nomnomnom! Went to Adeline's grandma place for awhile because both of them wanna play with Adeline's baby cousin, cute! And i went over to vivo to meet Gina at night, but i was freaking late for one hour /: Accompnied her for dinner and went home, i know its lame lah, LOL.

After i talked to Jovin, Adeline and Elaine. I realized how dumb i really was, to keep rely on others than to be independent. Yes, because im afraid to be alone.
I admit, im weak, i hate being alone because i feel inferior and empty. Whenever im alone on the train or bus, i will be fucking sensitive when other teenagers look at me because i feel imperfect, especially after they look and turn back to whisper. I SWEAR I HATE IT.
This is also why my friends treat me like small girl, even though some are younger than me.

I seriously need to learn how to be stronger and independent.

Now im without him, there's nobody for me to rant to. He's the one who asked me to learn how to be strong, actually, i should have known that he will be gone one day. Just that i didnt expect it will be so fast..

And after having a talk with my friend, i find that actually no one is giving a fuck to me. Serious. So now, i should stop caring so much and led my own life. If you wanna step out of my life, go ahead, i wont stop any one of you because for now, i expect that everyone will leave me one day. Its just a matter of how long and short period of time you're staying. Well, friends, one day if you guys ask why i dont give a damn anymore, you should know why and you're most welcome to leave since most of you just disappear out of a sudden. Takecare, Xx.

I was trying out with my lappy webcam before i go out ytd, hehehe.

2011-12-05T06:13:00.000-08:00

I've a phobia of losing someone important to me.

Hi guys! Y'know, sometimes i really hate blogging because i don't know how should i start with it /: Hmmm.

As you guys can see my title for this post, "I've a phobia of losing someone important to me." Yes, i've officially lost someone that's really really important to me, im not gonna mention the name because of some personal problems but, i guess some people who knows me in person should know who im talking about after finish reading this post.

Well, i believe that everyone went through friendships problems before, it's like a MUST-GO-THROUGH thing in our lifes. I've been through once, a really hard one. So i learnt my lesson and cherish every friends i have as much as i can, but still, i failed. Be it relationships or friendships, both are hard. I used to have failed relationships, and thus, i dont really trust guys nowadays, especially when they starts their sweet-talkings. Ok, this isn't what im gonna blog about. Ha ha.

So.....

Remembered when im secondary 3 i had a ultimately super close friend(if you know me in real person or read my blog before)? Yes, she's the first friend that's important to me and i've lost her because of my wrong doings and some arguements. And i regret for not treasuring her, but what's done couldn't be undone, so i moved on and get over it, and i swear that i had a hard time moving on, i took months. And i tell myself that she'll be the last person im gonna lost, after her, no more.

So, i treasure everyone i could.

Im sure that everyone hates how people walk in and out of our life, many complained, many rants, many starts to get upset and stuffs. I swear that i really know how it feels like, it really sucks. I cant stop complaining too, but slowly, i get used to it. I remember for a period of time, i've contact many different people and made lots of outside friends, but as time pass by, they left. Yes, without giving any warning. I cant stop complaining to my pretty sisters, and whinning on twitter after a few of them left, and i was thinking "Why am i giving a fuck to people who doesn't give a fuck about me?" So, i told myself that "Friends come and go, no one really stays." But then again, so what if im having that "Friends come and go" mindset? I still trusted and believed people in their words, which i know that most are just plain empty words.

I starts to get very emotional after this bestfried of mine left me not long ago, it's only about one week? I know that most of the girls wants a guy bestfriend that even others thinks they're couple. A guy bestfriend that you feel comfortable with, a guy bestfried that you can just be your true self. Sounds fun and cute isn't it? Well, apparently i had one, i can guarantee plus chop that he's really a good guy.

He's the first person who will be there for me when i need someone to rant my sorrows and complain all my unhapiness.
He's the first person who will text me immediately after he saw all my rantings on twitter.
He's the first person who will call me straight after i told him im feeling upset.
He's the first person who will make me laugh and give me advice at the same time when i told him about my crush.
He's the person who will talk to me on the phone throughout the whole night just to make sure im fine.
He's the first person who keeps quarrel with me because i dont listen to him with his good intentions.
He's the first person who i wants him to keep disturb and irritate me and still dont get angry.
He's the first person who i'd really try my best just to make sure he feels better when he dont.
He's the first person who i told all my secrets to and i swear it's every single thing.
He's the first person who i cried for when we quarrel.
He's the first person who can pull my entire mood down when he ignores me.
He's the first person who can brighten up my day when he's in a good mood.
He's the first person who can made me smile when he said smth cute.
He's the first person who treats me really well.
He's the first person who i dont lied to.
He's the first person who i dont mind telling him all my password, be it facebook, twitter or even my phone sms's password.
He's the first person that i just want him to be happy because when he's happy, i am too.
He's the first person who i dont mind him taking my phone to post nonsense stuffs on my twitter/facebook or even send nonsensical stuffs to my friends.
He's the first person that i can be really open-minded with.
He's the first person who i laugh at his sarcasm towards me and still dont feel offended.
He's the first guy who i really feel comfortable with.
He's the first guy who i can really be myself.

Haha. Do i sounds like we're couple? Yes? Well, there's really someone who mistaken us as one. I literally LOL-ed when he told me about it. Many said i've fallen for him, but no, i dont think so because i like someone else instead. Many said i'll be really happy and feel blessed if we are tgt, but again no, i dont think so because he had a girlf and we only treat each other as best friend and nothing more than that. I'd really really feel weird if we are tgt because we know each other too well, furthermore, he is in a stable relationship that alrd last almost half a year and they are really cute and sweet couple. I feel happy for them, speaking from the bottom of my heart. I want him to be happy. Things went on smoothly, and things i didn't expect happened, shall not elaborate on what had happen but, i thought this will be just a "normal" tiff we are going to have. Yes, i thought it would be...

Unfortunately, no.

Sigh. I tried ways to try not to bother about it but still, it affects me alot. I comfort myself by telling myself that he wont leave me in launch because he promised me and i know he's a person who doesn't likes to break his promise. I always believe that he'll be back till then, i realized somethings about him and i got really speechless. I couldn't believe it and i literally felt like i got bang by something hard, and that heart sank feeling caused me to burst out crying in the middle of the night. I cry myself to sleep and wake up as if im alright, this is one of the things we hate too right?

I dont get it, i dont get it what have i done to deserve all these. I apologized with the whole of my heart, i tried my best to treasure everyone i can but God seems to be playing a trick on me. I swear i really hate being ignored by him or quarrel with him, it really spoils my mood that whatever others do seems to be very annoyed to me even though it has totally nothing got to do or involved with them, at all. Maybe its karma? For i treated someone(another person) badly who's really trying to be good to me, i really felt guilty. I wanted to apologized but you know, i've got no guts to do so. I feel really bad that i dont even know what should i do so i just leave it. This person left me yet i cant be bothered at all, so whenever i thought of why would me and him end up being like this is because of my karma. And partly also because i took it for granted, whenever we quarrel i'll be thinking that "Ah fuck it, forget it. We'll be fine in a few days time." This time round, i dont deny that i had the same thinking too but i still fucking couldn't believe that he had left me for real.

So guys, dont end up like me, this is the biggest regret in my 17 years of life. Im not saying that i dont regret when that girl i've mentioned above left too, but at that time i was too ignorant, i didnt know how to cherish and treasure her, i dont feel the same when she left me compared to him. To be honest, i cant afford to lose him. I really couldn't but yet i have to accept the fact and face this shit. Please, treasure every friends you guys have before you regret, i dont want anyone to end up like me.
Guess i've been too emotional in this post...

2011-12-01T06:14:00.001-08:00

Sometimes, you gave up on someone. Not because you don't care but because they don't.

Suddenly got the feel to blog..
So, its the start of December, how are you guys? Again, it doesn't turns well for me. My eyes got so swollen till it looks like i got punch. Shall post up my swollen eyes photo later, dont get shocked ;)
Anw, caught "You are an apple of my eye" today with my sist, i've been wanting to watch this, and i didnt regret watching it, nice show though, it makes me thought of you. And i cant stop listening to "那些年", it's a really nice song...
Ok shall paint my nails now, and this is my damn ugly swollen eyes and my fuck face, dont laugh. LOL.

You know, i've been giving in alot. I cried so much for you, sending you long text sometimes to show how much i cared and wanting to cherish you. Even sent you a long long fb msg, crying while typing. And all i get is nothing? You didnt even bother to reply me, i know im at fault, i told you it slipped my mind, i didnt mean it. You make me feel that you're leaving for sure, this time. You should know how much you've changed my life, i've never treat anyone this way before. You know how much it hurts to know that you dont care anymore? You know how much it hurts when you turn your back against me when i need you the most? You know how much it hurts when i stop seeing your name appear on my phone? I told myself that you wont leave me because you promise to and i know you wont break your promise, please, you wont leave, right? ..

2011-11-28T11:48:00.000-08:00

You know I miss you so much that I have to keep my schedule occupied to prevent myself from thinking of you.

Sorry for not posting for so long, due to my lazyness and work, just a update to keep my blog alive because im really tired now /:

Have been working these few days, with Gina, Bokmay, Eunice, Angela and Edison. I really had lots of fun during my work, colleague were so friendly! But because my workplace was too far for me, so i went over to stay over at Gina'a place @ Bedok, again. Though its abit hard for me to get over it, and luckily my work keep me occupied, made me so tired that i immediately went to sleep upon reaching Gina's place. Now i kinda miss Bedok, i dont know whenever i go to east side(starting from Bugis till all the way end), i'll have a different kind of feelings, that i dont know how to describe too /: Ok weird, whatever.
On the last day of work, i was kinda sad because i know i'll miss working there, though my job assignment was damn easy that all my senior colleague wanted to take over me, hehe. Btw, my job assignment was just sitting down there in a room at a corner to take down queue and counter number, so whenever i wanna go toilet or a break, my senior colleague came and told me beforehand, "You later going for break remember to call me ah, dont call others! And go longer a bit, you walk one round go shopping then come back." LOL, cute?! So i was like "Oh, really ah? Okok" And the next day morning i got scolded -____- But still, one of the in-charge person there keep on snatching my job with me, he claimed that he helped me to pass the form end up he took away my form record board and asked me to sit down there and play my iPhone games, LOL. But of course i didnt, i just sat down there and happily eat my food and twitter. Im glad that i was being assign to this job, because everybody was complaining that how squeezy it was outside, and for me i was sitting down all the way, nobody squeeze me! ^^
Last day of work, Irene came down to look for me tgt with my KOI! Hehehe. She went for shopping and then came back again after she've done her shopping, then i saw her acting cute while waiting for me to come out. She and her friend, Henry was standing near the door, and facing it, taking photos. Its ok to take photo, but, everybody was looking at them! So i walked over and said, "Ah ah ah, take photo again, take more lah, continue." She laughed and pull me over with her to take tgt, cute not you tell me. So end up everybody was looking at the 3 of us taking photos /: I feel so weird because she was standing right infront of my booth, all my colleagues were looking. But its okay, that crazy girl happy can alrd ^^

Today, woke up a 12plus, shiok-ness! Because i've been waking up at 7plus for continuously 4 days, finally can sleep till i happy. Then a sudden plan to go to town for movie, after a one hour plus discussion with Eunice otp and Gina, we decided to watch "Already famous" first then "Breaking dawn", but due to the fucking rainy weather, it spoiled my mood and wasted lots of time so we didnt manage to catch "Already famous". The most fucked up thing is that i was carrying my SCHOOL BAG(thought that i'll be going home straight on that day), wearing some pasar malam clothes to town! Argh, and because of rainy day, my whole shoe were wet, makes me feel so uncomfortable and disgusted. Took cab to Cineleisure with Gina because we plan to watch our movie there and settle our dinner, but last min Eunice want us to go over to Far East to look for her first, so ok we feel so retard taking cab there and have to walk over to Far East. Meet up with Eunice, settled our dinner because 3 of us havent eat anything since morning! End up we decide to watch "Breaking dawn" at Bugis instead, so after our dinner we bused to Bugis, reached Bugis at 6.50pm and 3 of us rushed up to buy our tickets show at 7pm, LOL. Ok so "Breaking dawn" was nice though ;) But it makes me thinks alot, and feel so emotional /: After our movie we went to did some shopping for Eunice's romper and iPhone casing. But didnt manage to buy any casing because none caught my eye :( So went over to my shop awhile, and within 10mins, i took 3 clothes -___- Make me happy awhile. Went home after that, really cant believed that im wearing like that to town, LOL. I keep complaining non stop! Reached home and thought that i'll go to sleep straight, but end up i start to use my comp till now its alrd 5.45am, LOL. And i still have to go down to Tiong Bahru to return my Gillette's uniform at 10am, argh fuck. Ok i shall stop here now, bye.

2011-11-16T09:00:00.000-08:00

Can somebody show me that forever do exists?

Time to clean up some dust on my blog now.
Have been working these few days continuously, from morning till night, from Yewtee to Bedok. But, overall the Gillette Men's Shaver promoter was fun, better than the StarHub training i went at Bedok for the past two days after the Gillette event. Mainly because i got scolding for keep using phone -.- So last Fri-Sun was working at East Coast Road for the Gillette event, on the last day of the event, me and another of my colleague rush for the sales from 30 customers to 70 customers because the staffs there keep on complaining about us to our supervisor.
But im glad that Gina and Eunice came down after their work to meet me and accompany me till i end work as they ended earlier than me.
And Mon and Tues was having training for StarHub IT Fair at Bedok, Parkway Parade, tgt with Bokmay. First day Gina and Irene came down to look for me and accompany me for lunch, hehe! But mood got ruined cause i got scolded by the StarHub manager -.- Well, second day get another scolding too. I think i've got phobia for Bedok alrd, when i always used to love going there so much, LOL.
So for now, my agent called me last min to work for Gillette again till next Tues, thought it will be fun but NO :( West side people all so stingy -.- Totally no sales at all, not even one.
Off day tmr, gonna have my mini steamboat @ Rajah Inn at Tiong Bahru with Adeline and go for my facial after that!

***I love this crazy girl here!***

Yes, her name is Gina. We've known each other for 4 years since sec 1, we've been through up and down, quarreling and everything. Now, we've become closer. She's the one that will always asked me to meet her whenever she's free, cause she know i confirm will go find her one lah, LOL. And recently, she has been really really upset because of some personal stuffs. But all i can do is to advice her, and be her listening ear. Crazy girl, i really hope that you'd cheer up and stand up again soon. No point wasting your time on this kind of person who doesn't even care, i know now whatever i say will hardly get into your head, take your time, i promise i'll be patience with you. Remember, dont ever cry for a guy unless he's the one you're going to marry. We're still young, there's plenty of better guys out there, he's not the only one, furthermore, look at the way he treat you.. You dont even deserve this kind of treatment, dont hold onto smth thats gonna hurt you, the tighter you hold, the more pain you'll get. Cheer up, we'll go have your favourite chicken wings soon ok ♥♥♥

I've been working recently, to make my mind feel occupied so that i'll stop thinking about everything that makes me really feel unhappy. I just dont understand that why is it when i tell people how i feel, and yet they dont give a damn to me. But when i kept everything to myself, people likes to push all the blames on me, tell me what should i do now?

2011-11-07T21:46:00.000-08:00

My life isn't a playground for you to play your love game.

Im back to posting again, because i've nothing to do in the middle of the night like now? /:
I succeed in not using my phone for one day! Amazed by myself too, so im not gonna use it for 3 days, i'll just on my phone again on the 11th when im going to work, at Timah, AGAIN :( Boring shit seriously. Gina, Bokmay and Eunice are working tgt at Bedok, while i dont even know who am i working with! :( Pray not the two bunbun sisters!

Anw, i just checked my Formspring and there's this annoy asked me: "heard that you're not a virgin anymore, why do you keep claimed that you are?"
I didn't know that this rumours still keeps going on, so i didnt bothered to reply this annoy. But im here to tell you guys that im really really still one. I used to get really angry whenever people are spreading this kind of rumours and giving me those negative comments like "How many guys have you fucked?" or "You get fingered by your ex?" or "When did you lose your virgin?" or "At what age did you lose it?" or "Dont be a bitch, sleeping with many different guys doesn't makes you famous." so on and on comments which i cant remembered. Now when i think back, i realized that im really very childish to actually give a fuck about those untrue comments and even scold those people back. So slowly, i learned not to care about it thinking that this would stop, although those comments is decreasing, but i dont understand why are there still people asking me this kind of qns. Well, just because i've many ex? Having many ex doesn't mean that i aren't a virgin anymore. You see, this is society. When you had many ex, and just because you had many ex so you went to many different of your boyf/girlf places, and this is why others thinks that you gets fucked before by many people.
*** So this is the qns: "What era are you living in?"
I dont deny that i have many ex before, but i can tell you confidently that out of 11 ex i have, i only went to 3 of my exs' places, yes it's fucking true. BUT, the reason why people spreading that i alrd gets fucked before is because sometimes i did went to some of my flings' places, ok actually not that exaggerate that i have to use the word "some", actually i only went to two of my flings places. LOL. But, i can swear that we did nothing involved about sexual! Or maybe is because i used to changed boyf too fast? Ok this is shit seriously. I mean like, there's nothing special if you went to your ex places before, as long as you're clear conscience of what you're doing. No?
Total nonsense.

I shall go and spam my twitter now, still feeling as upset as ytd. Fuck this.

2011-11-07T05:47:00.001-08:00

I never failed to disappoint people, no matter how much i tried.

Ok so, it's a start of Nov, again some unhappiness crop up. I feel really fucked up now, but, im still gonna do a post of my own relationships and stuffs.

So basically, i've 11 ex. I will just name them by their initials. GJ, EW, HT, JT, ET, IC, YY, GK, WC, BY, TW.
But actually, if i were to say that those relationships i really put my effort into it, it's only 4. And they are ET, GK, WC and BY, the others maybe it's just crush but were officially tgt, and we did nothing at all, dont even look like couple, LOL. Not forgetting that i've some flings too, i dont deny that.

Before my first serious relationship, i start to have boyf when im primary 6, and had 4 ex in between primary 6 to secondary 1 which im not serious in because im still young, they are GJ,EW,HT and JT. Then i had a serious one when im in secondary 1, and he's ET. And i think it lasted for 3-4 months? He dote on me and love me alot too, and the most epic thing is that my first kiss was given to him, LOL. Ok this is stupid /: But i broke up with him because i fell for another guy, IC, which is also not serious one. ET was really sad, and recently i found out smth about him is that he still cant forget me, although it has alrd been 3 years going 4? I feel guilty, of course. But i tried not to care as much as i can, i know im evil but you'll find out why later.

So in between, i had some officially-tgt-but-not-serious relationship which is IC and YY. And then i got tgt with GK, i know i get into relationship fast last time /: And this is also why my reputation was spoiled that time. So when im secondary 2, i was tgt with GK for around 6 months going 7, and this is the longest relationship i had. Then my feelings for him faded because i met WC, he was in the same school as me. And i hereby to admit that i fucking two timed GK, yes i know im fucking evil and fucked up but i guess if someone who ever came across this kind of situation you'll know how i feel so dont judge, though i know whoever reading this still will. So i've been dragging this two relationships for two weeks, and i finally decided to break up with GK and get tgt with WC after two weeks, i think? WC has really been a good boyf, or should i say that he's the best boyf i ever had? I really do love him alot, more than anyone could imagine.
Me and WC get tgt when im sec 2 otw to sec 3, he was sec 3 when im sec 2, and then he retained so when im sec 3, he was in the same class with me. I feel happy of course, we were tgt for around 3 months, but then, slowly his feelings for me faded. So he treated me very coldly, i start to feel paranoid and lied to myself that everything is gonna be alright. But at last, he broke up with me, and im fucking sure that this is karma, for treating GK badly previously. I cried like some kind of dog, and can you imagine that i still have to face him for 5 days a week? In the same class for god sake, and i took around 8 months to forget about WC.
BUT, when im single for around 6 months, i met BY and had a crush on him. So we get tgt too, when im actually couldn't let go of WC completely, see how bitchy can i get? But me and BY had lots of quarreling in between, be it quarrel with him or his friends. Because one of his friend had a crush on me too, so im always being the middle one. I even caused both of them to break their friendship which they built up since Secondary, fyi, they were in ITE alrd. So yea, me and BY were tgt for around 3-4 months too, he broke up with me because we were having some tiffs. And he didnt expect that after that break up i decided not to patch back again, he really regretted for breaking up with me, he even teared. But as time passed, he and his friend reconciled, then they started to bitch about me, went around spreading about me too. Can you believe that two 17 going 18 years old guys were doing this kind of things?! And they claimed that this is call "love me alot"? Girls i can understand, but, they're guys. Omg -.- So after broke up with BY, i had quite number of flings in between, but im not gonna mention who.
I was single since August of 2010 till August 2011, i had another boyf, TW, which is this year around my N's, i only told a few people about this because i feel that its only a crush and im not serious with it. I broke with him after one month, till now im single. Actually i considered myself as single since last year August, im used to my single life i guess. In fact, because i really love WC alot and i know how hurt it will be like to be in a relationship if you put in too much effort, so i rather not to be to serious. Call me selfish or whatever i dont care. Thats why i choose not to care much about ET after knowing that he still couldn't let go of me.

So for now, i had a crush for two person at the same time, yes im flicked minded. Actually when im tgt with TW in this year August, i alrd had someone in my mind, i decided to be tgt with TW because i thought i've alrd forgotten about him, but no, i cant feel the happiness in me at all. Thats the reason why i broke up with TW. Actually, i had a crush for person A since this year april, and then slowly we break contact. Until June, i get to know person B and person B starts to like me, but i rejected him and slowly he gave up. Who knows, now, i realized that im starting to like person B yet somehow still thinking about person A. Me and my flicked minded, fucked up isn't? So, not long ago, about a few hours ago, i found out smth about person B and i got so fucking upset that i decided to off my phone and not to bring out tmr.
I kept telling my friends not to cry over guys, and yet me myself are doing it right now. I feel weak, unwanted and useless. Maybe this is karma, i always believe in karma.
I wanna thanks @GinaChua, @Phileoloveee (IreneTan), @BokMayNg, and @kidnapmyheartz (ShermaineKoh) for asing me to cheer up :) I really felt alittle better now.

Sometimes i really wish to work everyday, to make myself tired, stop thinking so much stuffs and numb those feelings away. I feel much happier when im working, here are some photos taken when i went for the job training and when im working.

Can i work everyday? I hate this hanging on feeling.

2011-10-26T07:44:00.001-07:00

Why should I bother, when you don't even care.

Hiiiii, I'm back to blogging because... I'm bored? /: Ok um anw, a happy belated birthday to LimZigui that idiot, who has been asking me to buy a gucci wallet for him till now. But ok I'm not going to of course, and I asked him to buy me a Burberry bag instead. LOL.
Anw, people have been asking how do I get to know Elaine, Adeline and other of my pretty sisters. Ok so I'm gonna do a post about this, it might be long so.. yea, have a um.. good time(?) reading.

So okay, Elaine started to work for my parents at Bugis since she was 17, and then she was being move to FarEast to work. I was so obsessed with her because she's the first lady that's so so so pretty I've ever seen, it's true. I like her so much that I keep stick with her, ok sounds les but I'm not. I even keep lots of her photo, LOL. Slowly she turned 18, and then Adeline was introduced by Elaine to my parents and she also start working for my parents. And in between those periods, they taught me lots of life experiences, guide me along and everything. I always cry whenever Elaine share with me about life experiences, like I should respect my parents all these and stuffs because I was too young to think back then. All I know is to fool around everyday and curse my parents, I mean like, who don't when they're young? So yea, I told them about my personal problems too whenever I'm feeling down. But then again, because I still don't know how to think, so I started to learn smoking, skip class/school, being rude to teacher, didn't want to go home straight after school and stuffs. And at that point I thought that by doing this I feel proud, but no, when I was telling Elaine about all these "proudly", she lectured me. Asking me to quit smoking before I got addicted, of course I listened to her and I quitted smoking. And yes finally they turned 19, they start to get to know other pretty sisters of mine because some were working at bugis too. So one by one joined, Peiling used to work for my parents too and that's also how they get to know each other and stuffs. And okay I'm the last to join because my parents were strict, I can't stayed out late at night but they trusted all my pretty sisters.
And now, most of them are alrd 18, 19 and 20. Elaine was married and had a baby girl now, see how time flies? She had been working for my parents for 4 years alrd. All of them are really protective towards me, they dote on me alot and that's the reason why I love them :)

Hah, ok the end. Nothing much actually but some people just wanna know the story so I blogged it out. The next post will be about my relationship stuffs as some people in formspring asking me about my ex and regarding about my virginity or whatever. So stay tuned guys, thanks for reading too! Xoxo.

2011-10-16T11:48:00.001-07:00

Can I have you, please?

Ok, I'm feeling rather moody now. But the only thing which makes me happy today is that all my songs is back! Love it, I can listen to it when I needa travel a long distance! Hehe.
I wanna change my blog song, but the problem is I forgot my pw and that stupid website just refused to send me my reset pw link when I've click the "forgot my password" for more than fucking twenty times -.- Lol!
Had interview with Gina, Bokmay, Eunice, Steven and Edison on saturdy, it's gonna be my first job. I feel weird though because I don't know anything /:

I've lost 5 followers straight today, dk what's wrong with those idiots, lol.
Spamming my twitter now, shall not post here because I swear that it gonna be a long post AGAIN if I post how I feel now.
Anw, formspring people had been asking me whether my formspring photo is showing my tits(Ok I feel fucking weird and embarrassed for writing this but, well..), the thing is that IM NOT, ok?! IM NOT -.- I don't know why it looks like after I glance it everytime when people asked me, LOLOLOLOL.
K bye.

2011-10-10T10:55:00.001-07:00

Hi, do you still remember me?

Hi! Exams finally over! Yes, N level exams is finally over! But I don't feel any excitement in me, maybe because I flunked my biology, humanities and maths paper2. Doubt I'll get promote to sec5 alrd, disappointing much? Sigh.
It's alrd 2am, and here I am still posting blog and not asleep yet. Went over to bokmay's place to dye my hair tgt with Gina, the colour wasn't what I expected. Though it's a little brownish, but I want it to be a lighter brown :(
Gonna go for interview later on in the morning with the girls, first time I'm going to job interview, LOL! Hope it will be a success /:
Wanted to write some emo stuffs but, ah I think write here and there also same thing. Shall rant on twitter now, once again, follow @Lockmylove for instant updates! Xoxo.

2011-10-06T03:17:00.000-07:00

You're the one that appear on my mind when i came across the word "Love".

Hi people, since i've nothing to do now so i shall do a short post. Hehe. The photo above was taken when i just done my facial without make up too. Shag face right?
I had my Maths paper2 today, and i swear im fucking angry with myself! :( It wasn't a hard paper actually, i mean seriously. But there's way too many tricky qns, that caused me had lots of careless mistakes. Know what? 22 marks just fly away like this, yes it's fucking 22 marks!!! Damn it. Argh. But the only thing that makes me happy is that my last paper is on Monday! Yes and i can meet my pretty sister soon, real soon. I miss them so much!
But somehow, i miss those times when i was studying with Gina, Bokmay, Eunice and Steven. Lots of laughter and fun, we were like travelling around Singapore just for study, hehe. Now exams gonna over, kinda miss it :(
Ok quit my rantings. Anyway, for people who followed me on twitter, you guys may realized i un-privated my tweets for awhile and then i private it again, due to some personal reasons. I'll un-private it again soon, and will inform you guys on my facebook once i un-private it. More updates will be on Twitter btw, but sometimes i spam tweets. Lol!
Ok, stop here. Bye, xoxo.

2011-10-04T10:12:00.001-07:00

If only you were mine.

Ok hi people, I'm totally screwed by the blogger apps on my phone because I accidentally deleted my previous post. Zz, so fucked up.

Anw, it's the start of the October now, guess everyone's hoping to be a good one? But unfortunately, it doesn't seems to be a good month for me, maybe? Starting of the month I almost lost someone that's important to me. You know how does it feels to lost someone you're so close to? The feelings totally sucks, I've been very upset over this matter for few days, I even cried in the public when I'm with my friends. Like ohgod, you know how much this person meant to me?
Ok, let me elaborate the whole story, if you wish to know.
On the 1st Oct, which is a Saturday, I was actually feeling very happy because of some stuffs happened on the previous day, until I received a text from this person in the morning on Saturday. And I totally freaked out, I got so so so angry and mad that I can't stop complaining to my friends and those ratings on twitter. But I tried my best to control my temper all the way to changi, until I really can't take it that I called Xiangling up and complain to her, and I burst out crying, yes in the public at changi airport! Can you imagine like so many foreigners looking at me or maybe they're thinking that my family was overseas or smth and I cried terribly? Lol. But I got my mood settled down after awhile, and continue with my studies at changi. Going off at 8plus in the night time to bedok over Gina's place, thought that maybe I could stable my mood for at least that night. But I was wrong, because I was staying over at Gina's place at bedok, and it's my virgin of staying over outside (ok I know I'm a mummy-girl for 17 years of my life and it doesn't includes those camps or overseas trip from school.), so my mum was over-protective towards me. She kept calling me again and again, it's like one hour call one time? Abit over, right? And, I was actually meeting MarcusLim under the block because Gina and him are living at the same block. So when I haven't even really started to talk to him, my mum called and start to quarrel with me on the phone, which spoils my mood even further. I was alrd feeling very upset for the whole day since morning and at night I still have to tolerate her fucking nonsense? So I have no choice to go back up to Gina's house while Marcus went off first. It was alrd 11plus going to 12am by then, I wasn't asleep yet as I'm still whatsapp-ing with Xiangling, until I really couldn't take it anymore so Xiangling asked me to called MarcusLim up to meet him. So I did, I called him up and was crying on the phone telling him what happen, and asked him to text me back again when he was otw home. And around 2am plus Marcus was finally coming back, went down to meet him and expect him to talk to me but guess what happen?! HE WAS DRUNK!!! I had a hard time "playing catching" with this fellow, I swear he's damn troublesome! Wanted to go here and there and I'm not familiar with the place, so I had no choice but to follow everywhere he go. He was suppose to accompany me and ended up I was the one who accompany him, so I had a really long time asking him to go home as it was raining heavily, it's ok if it's raining, but I keep asking him to go home because he brought me to somewhere that doesn't have a shelter if we were to go home, so I have to wait for the rain to be smaller. And finally the rain stops for awhile, pulling him up from the chair to drag him home but he too heavy ah, lol! Then rain starts again loh, sian 1/2! But I managed to drag him back at 5plus in the morning, actually I have to thank him too, for giving me a hard time following him everywhere he go and makes me super exhausted. Wanted to bring Marcus up to his doorstep because he just live on top of Gina, plus he was drunk that he cant even walk properly, but he insist me to go home first. So I did, and I was so tired that I immediately fell asleep, woke up at 7am, slept for only 2hours. Prepared and going out for study, and I received another text from that person again. Seeing his name on my phone I was really shocked, and thought it was smth good until I open the msg. It disappoints me even more, and somehow hurting too. This brings my mood even down, didn't have the mood to study. So was slacking away for one hour plus and I went off alone back to Yewtee as I have tuition while Gina, Eunice and Steven continue with their studies. A long ride of train from Tampines to Yewtee, luckily there's Xiangling accompany me to whatsapp so I won't fall asleep. Reached home and I had tuition, straight away went to sleep till 8pm plus and my mum was back. Again she starts to make a big fuss, totally pissed. But the next day, which was Monday and I had my chemistry, biology and history paper, luckily that matter didn't affect my mood for my papers.
Finally all 3 papers down and was at lot studying with Gina until I see smth, which makes me so fucking happy! Shall not mention what is it in case some stalker come stalk my blog. Hehehe!
But another stuff is bothering me again, which makes me understand what's really going on.

Ok enough of my grandmother stories. Shall talk about my exams! Had 3 papers one shot in a day on monday, quite satisfied with my chemistry, but as for biology, I leave too many blanks and I guess my bio will pull down my chemistry marks :( Sigh. And I had maths paper 1 today, still manageable! Hehe, gonna go out to study with the same girls tmr for maths paper 2! Two more papers to go and I'm free!
Ok guess my post too long alrd, shall stop here. Bye!

Now I finally understand what's really going on. Guess I'm too dumb to fall for that, since this is what you want, then just go ahead. So what if I miss you? You won't even give a damn about it because you've showed me the reality. Takecare.

2011-08-31T11:37:00.001-07:00

Cherish what you have before it's too late .

Okay I'm updating my blog again because I'm too bored . Hehe .
Didn't attend school today because I've got totally no mood for it , I don't know why . I even stayed up for the whole night ytd because I can't fall asleep :/
Laptop hasn't been repaired , I wanna change my blog songs badly ! And did I mention that I lost all my songs in my phone ? Because I've got itchy hands ! Damn , that's why I can't wait for laptop to be back , I really need my songs back ! :(

Xiangling has been quite down today and she's very serious when talking to me , I didn't want to care because I don't want to think too much but well , at last I failed to do so , I thought over those words she told me . I can't help but to agree with her .
Who's my true friend all along ? Who will be the one who would be there for me when I'm in need ? And if I were to say this , only Elaine and Adeline , maybe . Let's not say about my family . And now Elaine has got her own family , she doesn't really have time for me now . Well , both of them played a big part in my life , I'm not saying that the other pretty sisters of mine don't , yes they do but not as much because they have their own things to deal with too . I can't possibly keep pester them when I'm down , my biggest fear is not relationship , but friendship . I put friendship before relationship because I think that friends are more important , if you lost a boyf you can find again but if you lost a friend , he or she might not be back again . I don't want history to repeat , I don't want to lose another person that's special to me .
Yes I know in life , we have many problems and obstacles to overcome with , but I learned smth , which is "Problems are never ending in life , we just have to suck it up and deal with it . That's how life works ." I'm really contented with my current life now , really , I hope it would just stay like this forever but I know it's not gonna be . Just wish that I would change for the better this time round , no more crying over friendship .

I've specially thank some people in twitter by mentioning them individually , because everytime when I can't fall asleep at night , I would looked back to the past and some people just appear in my mind . They are , LimZigui , MarcusLim , DovenTang , my whole group of pretty sisters , Bokmay , Rachel , Xiangling , Linda and Jocelyn . Love all of them <3

Though me and Zigui , Marcus , Jocelyn drifted , but I still have to thanked them . Especially Zigui and Jocelyn , before Jocelyn appear , Zigui was the one who had a hard time cheering me up , giving me advice and guiding me all along , if it's weren't for him , I guess I wouldn't have come to this far . But after he came back from Vietnam , he totally changed , he doesn't care for me alot like how he used to it , we used to text each other everyday , but now , even if we didn't contact for a week we can still go on with it . He's the one who will always took initiative to text me , he's afraid that smth might happen to me whenever i didn't reply his msg and he would send another text to me . But now , no , we aren't as close as before even though we did contact . He didn't ask about my problems anymore , to be honest , I miss the past him . And of course Jocelyn have helped me alot too , she's there for me when I'm down . Despite me and her had lots of misunderstanding last time , she still willing to stay by my side and pulled me up . Marcus and me drifted is because we didn't contact for a period of time , but still , I have to thank him for being there listening to my rantings even though he didn't helped much . Yes we did contact back recently , I don't know if he still remember that he promised me he won't come and go , maybe he does so he did the first move and text me first . I gotta admit that he's a great listener , I'm not his good or best friend , whatever you name it of course , but no matter what he still did his part as a friend .

Bokmay , Rachel , Linda and Xiangling was the one who accompany me throughout those hard time I had in school , they did not outcast me even though they know my problems in school . Especially Bokmay , she's a great friend I can say , for never leave me alone when I'm in school . She've also helped me with my studies , cared for me and keep on reminding me to study hard because she wants to see me again in sec5 and go for Poly . Rachel and Linda would accompany me when Bokmay didn't attend for school , though we were from different classes , but they would never leave me alone . I got to thank Rachel for allowing me to rant my problems to , and not forgetting Xiangling , although she keep disturb and irritates me , but she's still a good friend and listener . She really helped me alot , she didn't despise me when others did .

My whole group of pretty sisters and Doven are those who I must really hand in to , they know so much of me and never failed to be there for me . They are the ones that can make me cry and laugh easily just by a few words , I really have to thank them , going through thick and thin with me . They are also the one who wants me to be a good daughter of my parents whenever I throw my tantrum to my parents , I never failed to be the "princess" when I'm with them . Love them for listening to all my sorrows and never once complained about it .

I really love all the people I mentioned above , I don't know how long can all my friendship with them last , but I really cherished them as much as I could . I know I may not be their best friend , I may not be good enough as a friend to them but no doubt , a big thankyou too all of them , much loves <3

Ok it's a very long post , you can choose not to read it if you feel bored .

2011-08-28T14:12:00.000-07:00

Regretted.

It's 5.00am now and I'm here posting my blog , I must be crazy I know , LOL ! But I'm really too bored , wanted to order Mac but the Mac just don't wanna pick up the call , online order yet they said can't deliver to my area :( Asked MarcusLim to helped me order and he's being a retarded by calling me and conference the Mac line inside , LOL ! But end up didn't get to eat :( Amanda Wong is currently staying over at my place and she's sleeping soundly beside me now , hehehe . Was talking nonsense with Doven the whole day today , and he's having moodswing after that :/ So I went to disturb others but they fell asleep except for MarcusLim , forever a rabbit .

A long school holiday till Friday ! And after that it will be the start of my mother tongue N level paper alrd :( Goodluck for those who are taking N level too ! Ok shall end here , just to update because RachelChee said my blog is dead . Hehehe .

2011-08-06T11:52:00.001-07:00

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部，我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的 .

It's august now , time passes so fast , 2011 gonna end soon , real soon .
I know again , I didn't post for some time , bet my readers alrd gone . But anw , kinda excited for 2012 , LOL ! Every year saying the same thing , "hope this year would be better" , but shits always happens . Better not , I had enough of those shits . But I'm glad that things turn out to be better recently .
I needa diet , people around me are saying that I've become fatter compared to last time :(
N level is coming , preliminary this coming Thursday . Classmate told me that I should give up on my humanities for preliminary because he thinks that I will flunk it given to my current situation after he taught me :(
Anw , using my phone to update my blog , realised not only my blog is dead , my formspring too , LOL ! Ask more qns leh .

I'm like drifting away from my pretty sisters because of my studies , I hate it . Hope that after my N level everything will be fine again .
Also , I'm like drifting away from Doven too , because of relationships , I miss how he used to make me so hard on the phone and cheered me up when I'm down . Trying my best to salvage it , but seems like it really can't be help . You've been reply my texts slower slower each time . Tell me what am I suppose to do ?

Once bitten twice shy , why am I still so useless ? I should have just keep quiet from the start , I hate it everytime I'm being sucha bitch .

2011-07-21T00:22:00.000-07:00

Sensitive & Paranoid

Sorry for not posting for a long time . Same reason , lazy .
Finally , Elaine'prettysister is married on the Sunday 18thJuly , prettiest bride i ever seen . Few photos below , some haven't got upload by her and friend .

Otw to her wedding ceremony .

On her wedding ceremony

Pretty right ?! Wishing them live happily forever and her baby to be healthy !
But im sorry , and sad to say that my mood isn't that good on that day . Shouldn't be too hyper that day .
School was fine recently , though i hardly fall asleep , but still , nothing gets into my head . Having tuition later on , totally not in the mood today .
And and and , i also realised that im really getting fatter and fatter each day . I look into the mirror i feel like killing myself , i've been eating alot recently . So now , im gonna cut down on fast food , and also saving money . Didnt attend school today because it's racial harmony day , but the moment i wake up my mood got spoil . Ok bye .

No im not being sensitive , im not being paranoid , its true . My sixth sense would never go wrong , stop comforting me and asking me not to think too much . Its so obvious , it's always like this . Im tired , really .
Sisters , studies , relationship , all giving me problems . Why ?
I should have keep quiet from the start , i feel so stupid . I cant do anything except for annoyed people , thats what im good at it , uh ?
Yea , maybe its true , like what you said , my observant is not strong enough , i trust people too easily . Should really fucking quit this habit .

2011-07-11T01:08:00.001-07:00

I wanna let you know how much you meant to me .

Hihi ! Lazy to update my blog for so long ! Bet my readers all run alrd :(
But anw , I'm a happy girl recently ! Hehehehe . School was getting fine , but N level's coming soon ! :(
Went for supper with pretty sisters , Cheehoe and Wenloong last Saturday , my whole clique ! Full house gathering again ! Second time alrd ! Saw someone i dont wanna see . Settle our supper at Pastamania , need seperate table eat cause we too many people alrd . As usual , joker was Cheehoe and Wenloong again , can't stop laughing . Waited for them to smoke finish after eating , and then cab home while some went to club . And someone make me happy when I'm otw home ! Hehe .

Just reach home from school not long ago , wanted to take a nap but ended up I keep on texting and I got bored so I'm here to update my blog . Im going for night study later , wanted to go on every Friday actually but today exceptional cause Bokmay asked me to , so good right me . And I just called mummy to ask her fetch me after my night study so I don't have to reach home so late ! Can sleep earlier ! And also , i'm lazy to go to school later alone so I told Doven this :

Me: Eh , I later need go back school for night study leh , come fetch me can ?
Doven : Cannot , I meeting girlf .
Me : Ok loh nvm . I every Friday need go back school for night study one . *Hinttttt*
Doven : Petrol expensive leh . *Hint* =D

He's trying to act cute by adding one smiley behind ! But I laughed when I receive that . Hehehe .
Okay I think I needa sleep now if not later cannot concentrate !

2011-07-01T21:57:00.001-07:00

If I say I want your body now , would you hold it against me ?

It's the start of July , half a year have passed . How fast isn't ? N level's coming , I got a feeling that I can't do it :/
Guess everything is fine now , and I hope it would maintain all the way like this . No crying , no rantings , no complaining :) But except for one thing , you . I know you've girlf , you can't contact me much . I don't ask for more , I just hope that our friendship won't drifted , I want us to be as close like the past . I really miss your jokes and nonsense alot ...
I still can't get over ytd , hahaha ! Never thought that it may be my last time having supper with sisters and it turn out to be so fun ! Though some left first , some was moody and overall everyone still try to maintain and joke around . I'm not obedient ytd , I almost made Adeline angry :( But we were fine after that . Satisfied !
I can't wait to be 18 , why must my mother pop me out on Dec ! :(

I can see that we're drifting , I don't want one day that we will end up losing contact ..

2011-07-01T11:51:00.001-07:00

I didn't expect this would happen so fast and sudden .

Just back from having supper with clique today ! Full house gathering ah , happy cause it's like first time ! Heh .
Didn't attend school due to insufficient of sleep and causes headache , so I happily sleep till 2plus then wake up to prepare . Trained down to BPP to meet JiaNi and bused down to bugis for my spoilt portable charger but end up can't change :( JiaNi went off to town first to meet her friends while I stay at bugis , called my dad to asked if I could go for supper and he actually said yes without any hesitation , and I wonder did he eat wrong medicine , LOL . Joycelyn came down to bugis too to wait for Elaine to end work , bused to cine tgt to meet Adeline , Peiling , Jovin , Lyn , JiaNi and Cheehoe , waited for Wenloong to reach . And prata for supper ! Was kinda moody at first , but upon receiving your text , my mood went up ! Heh . Joker of the day : Peiling , Cheehoe , Wenloong , Elaine and Adeline . Made all of us laugh so loud and hard at the prata shop . But after eating I went moody again , I don't know why :/ Slacked at Scape awhile and then cab home . But afterall I had fun today , love my pretty sisters !

2011-06-23T00:31:00.000-07:00

It's time for Goodbye , isn't ?

Cried so hard last night , like wtf am i doing ? I thought i aren't suppose to ? Well , sucha weakling . Or maybe i should really give up and just forget it ? Let nature take its course is the best right ?
So long ever since i dedicate people in my blog , and this time i think is the best one i ever did because its the first time i dedicate post for people tgt with photos . Spent 2 hours dedicating using my phone last night , and thought everythng would turn out well but no , im wrong . Maybe except for some ? Sigh .
Jocelyn over at my place again , im like so super suaku dont know how to edit photo and she helped me . HAHA . And now Amanda Naomi came over , hehe , likea long never see her alrd . She called me at 5am plus this morning , she hung up after chatting awhile cause i told her raining talk on phone if lighting strike will deaf . LOL . Okay , update just to make my blog look alive . Shall let my brother use the comp now and wait for tuition teacher to arrive . ^^ Bye .

2011-06-22T00:13:00.000-07:00

International Love .

Been asked to update my blog by JocelynLim , she's currently over at my place and im helping her to jailbreak her phone .
Ok one hour later , jailbreak success , LOL . Having tuition later , sucks ttm , so boring . Heading down to Yewtee Point later to have dinner with Jocelyn at LJS ;)

------Came back home after "tuition"-------

Supposed to have tuition but i skipped it , totally no mood for tuition :/ So slacked around at "YP Corner" to kill time with JocelynLim , LOL . Reached home and watched my C.L.I.F , hehe . And i guess i wont be sleeping tonight again , in case you text me , though i know its abit out of qns but i will still wait .
I seriously broke likea dog , dont even have 1dollar in my wallet now , wtf . First time , LOL . And Jocelyn have been treating me lunch or any other food , guilty max and yet i dont even have the money to treat or pay her back . I feel like jailbreaking my phone too , Installous totally cant work , but i scared if jailbreak i need to download everything again which takes up a few hours . Maybe i shall ask my tuition teacher tmr again . Okay , school starting soon , so this post gonna be long long post for a few people who i really feel grateful towards them during this one month holiday , they have been cheering me up and everything . Hehe .

Adeline'pretty sister

Hi Jiaqian , school starting soon and i guess you will receive my msg at least once a week alrd . Though sometimes i get sensitive or even make you feel irritated , but you will never complain but continue to love me . You will make me laugh when im feeling down , buy things for me to eat and share with me . You will tell me lots of things about your "xiasuay" stuffs , scold me when i did smth wrong . I dont know why but somehow me and all the AAAS-C are drifting , maybe because i dont really active in fb anymore , i hardly go down to workplace and find you all . During those time when i really feel like ending my life , AAAS-C was the one who make me continue to stay strong . Fate or destiny , im really glad to have this bunch of great sisters with me .♥

Jovin'pretty sister

Hi Baoyue , i remember we arent that close in the past , but thanks to Elaine , i joined you all and became closer . I usually dont rant my stuffs to you , but slowly , i start to look for you and tell my grandmother stories . You are also another sister that will scold me whenever i did smth wrong , teach me things about relationship . So slowly i would tell you everything about me and some people , you dont want me to get into ITE and keep nag and asked me to study hard because ITE life was hard . Also , you will always bbe my listening ear and let me complain , and advice me after that . I know last time i keep pester you all to bring me go club because i get influenced , never once you agree because you told me club was a complicating place and i could only go when i reach 18 . Same thing , a great sister that would stay by my side whenever i need you . ♥

Elaine'pretty sister

Hi Geoklan , you're getting married soon , take good care of the little one in your stomach . I know recently you cant control your temper due to prenancy , i know its tough , so i dont dare to look for you when im sad . But i want to let you know that you're still in my heart no matter what , you always buy things for me when you go overseas with mummy , scold me when i did smth wrong or make papa mummy angry . You teach me everything with patience , you used to tell me "If you dare to smoke again , please dont ever talk to me anymore , thats it." I feel the love from you , at that moment i felt so bless , and of course even till now , i do . Among all the sisters , you're the one that i always makes you angry with all my wrong doings , yes you do lecture me , but you still love me like before . Because of you , i became part of AAAS-C . ♥

Peiling'pretty sister

Hi Peiling , i love your "xinsan ren" . I would go to you sometimes when mummy scold me or when i feel helpless , you told me to study hard and teach me whats right and wrong . You can make all of us laugh till we get stomachache , this is the first time im writting this to you , because when my life was in a messed , you "counsel" me and make me feel better . Approaching you was never wrong , i know no matter what you will take up my rantings and advice me . Although we're same age but among you all i always seems like im the youngest because i never experience lots of things like you guys do . I never regret knowing you at all because you was one of the best person that appear in my life , in fact the whole of AAAS-C . ♥

Lyn'pretty sister

Hi Yiling , you're the first sister that fetch me from school among the others , and also the first one to do this other than my parents . We became closer because of Elaine and others too , and also we know the same person(you know who) , so i always go to you and complain to you about that particular person . You treat me like your younger sister too , advice me and asked me not to give a damn . I know you have your own problems to worried too but yet when I go to you , you'll never show me attitude . I love it when you fetch me from school because I feel like I really do have a real blood sister , I keep pester other sisters to do the same thing but they are too busy because of work , I wanted to do this because I wanna try the feeling of being fetched by any one of my sisters . Make me feel so blessed ! You're one of the best sister I ever had . ♥

Doven.TWN

Hi WeiNan , you're one of a great friend I ever had , you're just like my big brother . Although we just knew each other for the short 3 months , but we became close friend that always tell each other our problems . You once told me you don't feel my importance in your heart , though I don't know now did you feel it but I really did tried my best to be a good friend of yours . I have to admit that sometimes we quarreled , I hate to give in so easily , because you make me feel like I'm not important to you at all or it's just part of my wishful thinking . I know maybe now I'm such a pest to you , I always make you feel irritated and annoyed , but please don't get angry when you see this because I'm just saying out my thoughts . You know I'm a paranoid person , I tends to think alot . I hate it everytime when we quarrel , though I showed attitude or act like nothing happen , but deep down my heart it really hurts . To be honest , most of the time when we quarrel I cried , I'm serious . Sometimes I really feel like giving up but whenever I think of how you cheer me up , make me laugh and your concern , I couldn't bear to . I may sound like I'm interested in you , but no , it's because you play a big part in my life . I swear that I never regret knowing you at all , believe it or not , I'll still be here if you need someone to kp to . ♥

Rachel.CLM

Hi Liming , thanks for being there when I'm all alone . You are my great listening ear and always cheer me up with your nonsense when I'm down . Though you're younger than me , but you make me feel like I'm the younger one instead , I don't know why but I just feel this way . You know the whole incident of mine , and yet you didn't detest me but being the one who stay by my side to accompany me . Maybe you're tired of me complaining the same thing over and over again , but you still gave me advices patiently . Perhaps to you I may not be a good friend , but if you wanna rant your stuffs , I'll be there for you like how you did . And also , last long with your boy . ♥

Jocelyn.LLX

Hi Lixian , I know we have some misunderstanding previously , but now we both find it childish . I know I shouldn't doubt you when you start talking to me and become close with me , I'm sorry . Like I told you before , you are a great friend , you treat me lots of food when you know I'm left with no money . You know I can't accompany you to go for shopping spree but you didn't get angry , and in fact , you keep coming over to my place and accompany me . You're thoughtful , just like today , you told me you're hungry and wanna go down to buy some tibits , I asked you to go down alone , and end up you came back with a cup noodles and a cup of coke , I feel guilty upon seeing you standing outside my house tgt with the food you bought for me . You always accompany me for Tomyam Noodles and took initiative to buy me drinks , I know I'm not a good friend of yours because till now , I haven't even buy you a single stuff . I promise when school reopen and I get allowance , I will treat you . And also , thanks for being so understanding . ♥

Marcus.LCM

Hi Cheeming , thanks for taking the initiative to text me sometimes , and also concern me when you know I'm not feeling good . At times , I really got to take my hat off you , I know you don't really express out your feelings and keep everything to yourself . I'm wondering how did you even do that , don't you feel tired at all ? You're the first person that have the personality of being a happy-go-lucky person , I wish I could be like you , don't give a damn to my surroundings and live in my own world , I tried but I cant , I'm way too emotional . I got to admit that sometimes I hate your replies because all so short , make me have to think of how to reply your text . But at least I managed to do that , you don't get angry easily when I keep on disturbing you , you're a fun loving person . Sometimes when I'm reading your text I would laugh , though your replies are short . Well , I don't know you still remember that we promise we will club tgt when we reach 18 , hope you still do . I know I'm not in the right position to tell you this , but , try to cut down on cigarettes when you hasn't really got addicted . I know to you , I don't stand a place in your heart and you only regard me as a friend , but to me , you're a good friend , and also a good listening ear . I'm happy that I can get to know you , will meet up soon when I have time and if you want to ok . ♥

2011-06-20T05:45:00.000-07:00

Mr Saxobeat .

Sorry for not updating for a long time , didnt have time to and im lazy , heh .
My hair is so irritating that i've cut short , i look likea dog now :( Dont even dare to go out , LOL . I've been stuck at home for quite afew days and quarreled with Mom , spoil my mood ttm .
School starting in 6 days time , omfg . Now i feel so disgusted , seeing people posting about school gonna start in fb totally ruin my mood , and for that moment i really feel like deleting them , no offence though , LOL . And i bet the day before school start my whole fb home page will be about school school school , eww .
My body clock was screwed , i can stayed up for the whole night till 6-7plus in the morning . Been having Tomyam noodles with JocelynLim at Yewtee Point Koufu , nomnomnom ! Hehehe . And she's coming to my place again tmr ! I suddenly miss Naomi alot :( Ohnoooo , i miss the time when she stay overnight at my place and we had lots of nonsense , heh .

And there's smth i would like to say to DovenTang , my beloved brother that stands a special place in my heart :
Boy , thanks for being there for me when i need you . I know recently we have a big tiff that we didn't contact for few days , i know you were angry and i refuse to give in and take initiative because i insist that you were the one at fault first . But you started a conver with me and everything's over , so happy when your name appear on my phone when my phone light up . I dont mind letting you vent your anger on me when you're in a foul mood , i know you dont mean it . You know me well , i know you well , you always love to disturb me with your nonsense . Never failed to make me laugh , you always want the best for me , asked me to study and if i dont you not gonna talk to me . You want me to have proper meal and if i skip any meals you gonna be mad at me and forced to buy food , you want me to drink lots of water because i fell sick on my cousin's wedding and you were worried . Though its quite some time ago but you still want me to take good care of my health , you promised to fetch me or come to meet me once you got your bike , you told me how lousy your bike was compared to your friends , but you know i dont mind . You tried all sorts of way to make me fed up by insulting me on the phone , but ended up i keep laughing and you would tell me "I love talking to you , because no matter how i try to insult you you'll still laugh . And , why wont you get angry ?" My answer to you was "Because i know you will never meant it when you said that , i know you still care." And again you tried to make me angry by saying "When did you become so thick skinned ? I get bored of you alrd , i wanna find another girl to replace you alrd . Whatever i say you'll laugh , no fun ." And i would start to coquetry , you will imitate me . The sweetest thing you ever told me was "Girl , remember no matter what happen i will always stand infront and behind of you . Because im infront to shield the pain for you when people tried to hurt you , and behind to support you when you fall . People say they will stay by your side , but end up when things happen they're the one who leave , all geisiao one ." Upon receiving this text , my heart melts :') There's many more things you said to me , too many to mention . Thanks for everything boy , ♥ ♥ ♥

2011-06-07T00:40:00.000-07:00

Follow me on Twitter @Lockmylove .

JocelynLim is currently at my place , hehehe . And i swear she's fucking retard and lame ! Now my phone's installous cant work again , fml :(
Didnt sleep for the whole night ytd until this morning 8plus and went to bed . JocelynLim spam call me till she couldn't take it anymore and she went to add my sister on fb to wake me up :x Realise she spammed me 27 calls :/
Amanda Naomi went home at 1pm plus while im soundly asleep and now she's coming again , she love my house too much ^^ Just like JocelynLim , keep wanna come to play with my siblingsssss . Guess i wont be sleeping tonight again , fb and twitter for the whole night . Heh , im a happy girl today again ^^
And i got a feel to pplay back Audition so i went to patched the patcher of AuditionSEA , too long didnt play my skill rusty like dont know what alrd :( Plus laptop too lag cant play properly . Jocelyn keep laughing at how i got owned there ! :(

From now onwards , i swear i wont cry for any guys anymore .

2011-06-06T06:59:00.000-07:00

Give me everything tonight .

Hi peopleeeeee , RachelChee asked me to update my blog so here i am ! Mood was good today ! ^^
Had BBQ session on last Friday at West Coast Park with sisters and some guys , though mood was abit down but yes im quite happy because got hotdog to eat , heh . Parents came and fetch me afterwards , homed and sleep likea pig till next morning and head out with parents for the past two days .
Know what , 3 more weeks and school gonna reopen alrd , fast or what ?! I've been waiting for this one month holiday so eagerly and now gonna end soon . Hate it when holiday pass so fast while just one day in school the time passes like snail . Argh .
Anw , Elaine`sister's birthday is coming in just two more days ! ^^ Hehehe , love her maxmax .
Amanda Naomi is currently at my place and she's staying over tonight , cool ! And JocelynLim will be coming over to my place and play with me , hehehe .
My sister and Amanda are trying to psycho me to create twitter(Dont laugh , i know i doesn't have twitter likea noob.) ! Currently downloading installous into my phone , and i fucking dont understand why keep having IPA error , make me angry ttm ! -.-

Okay i shall stop here and continue with my phone , bye peeps !

2011-05-31T04:49:00.000-07:00

Im not childish , just that i need someone who will treat me like his baby ♥

Back to posting after so long :) Attended my cousin's wedding on last Saturday , but wasn't feeling well so i didnt enjoy much . Headache like mad and seriously feel like sleeping but i cant , luckily i managed to maintain till the wedding ceremony over , fell sick when i reach home . And finally the next day i recover alrd and now im having cough again :( Blame myself for eating too much ice cream straight after i recover and also had Long John Silver :/
JocelynLim came over to my place earlier on and bought me my dinner , Long John Silver again ! Hehe ♥♥♥ !
Watching Channel 8 now , fucking funny . Hehehe , ok shall let my sister to use alrd . Off to my tv !

2011-05-21T06:54:00.000-07:00

Count your life by smile not tears , count your age by friends not years .

What a fucked up day . Totally ruined my mood , trying my very best to cheer up alrd but still failed .
Thanks ElaineTay , AdelineOng , MarcusLim , DovenTang , JonathanZeng and Jayson for the concern :) But a big big big thankyou to Elaine , Doven and Marcus , heh .
Not forgetting JocelynLim too !
I know they have tried their best , but im really really very angry and sad :( But at the same time , something make me happy for a moment :/ And then mood straight went moody again cause i know its impossible . Argh .

So many why in my mind now , i hate this feeling , sucks totally . Once again , i really feel like sleeping all the way and dont ever wake up .
Impossible ? Sigh .

2011-05-20T05:27:00.000-07:00

Go and fuck the wall , tyvm .

Hi peoplezxc ! Im alrd self declare holiday today ! Heh , didnt went to school cause im too tired . Ordered mac breakfast early in the morning , craving for mac breakfast very long alrd !
I wanna find some cute cute apps to make my iphone nicer eh , any recommend ? :( I see my iphone till abit bored alrd :/
Anw , been watching a funny video on youtube , check it out "Miss Swan" , i swear its damn funny that it can really cheer people up ;)
Had a change of my blog songs again , heh .
Not going to school for the whole of next week except for friday to collect my report book ! :(

Headache sucks , ohmygod .

2011-05-14T05:36:00.001-07:00

I dont know why but i just lost trust in love , i've never felt this way before .

13/05/2011
Had my last paper , and worst is i only did two qns :/ First time in my life , so i can predict that my MYE results confirm cmi . Actually i dont plan to go for D&T paper , but my father asked me not to be lazy :( So went and paper ended at 12pm , reached home at 1plus , straight away went to have a nap because my body clock was screwed for the past two days as im chatting on the phone for the whole night and sleep at 6am , wake up at 5pm on Tuesday , same goes to Wednesday. So on the Thursday night i was tossing around on my bed till morning 7plus and get preapred for last paper , i cant even get to sleep no matter how hard i tried :(
So yea , sleep at 1pm plus after coming back from school , and wake up at 4plus because parents came back from overseas , finally ! ^^

Get prepared at 6plus and off to Bugis to meet Adeline and waited for her to knock off , Peiling came and bused to Cine tgt to meet up with Jovin and JiaNi for supper ! Without Elaine , Joycelyn and Lyn this time :( Had Pastamania , my mood was so down down down , but luckily i can controlled and manage not to give attitude face , hehe ^^ And finally i know why im having moodswing :/ Cab home after that , and finally im tired !

Today
Woke up at 4plus today by my mother -.- Had my Mac'Donald earlier on , going school on Monday to finish up my D&T project , actually there's no school one loh ! :( Sigh . \
Next supper on Saturday , hope my parents aren't angry with my results so i can go out :x
And i wanna a full house gathering with all my pretty sisters ! ♥♥♥

Just when im gonna put everything behind and give up , you appear again . I can feel how happy i am when i saw your text , but too bad im not going to put in too much feelings in it anymore . I dont want to get disappointment , sadness and the feeling of not texting you daily anymore . I know we are impossible , i know it's Karma because i once treated a guy this way , i know im not ready for a relationship yet , i know you feel nothing towards me and i know im not good enough for you .

2011-05-07T06:11:00.000-07:00

I miss the feeling of being loved by the one i love .

Back to blogging ! :) Exams going to over soon , how fast isn't ? So it means June holiday coming and i can enjoy with all my pretty sisters alrd ! Anw , those photos above are taken when celebrating Adeline's birthday .
I think i flunk my English paper because i was so tired on that day , i write half way and sleep awhile , wake up and continue with my sleepy eyes so i just anyhow write :/ And followed by History , Chemistry and Biology paper , omg :( All anyhow write , fail fail fail . And finally Tuesday gonna be Maths paper 1 , and Friday D&T will be the last paper , im so gonna self-declare holiday after that .
Had my dinner at HK Cafe earlier on with my siblings , totally not full enough though i ate one meal :( Changed my blog song again , hehehe . And i've got two tuition tmr , sad die me :(

- I miss AAAS-C and You .

I know you're trying to avoid me , so its okay , i'll just let nature take it course . Im not gonna give in that easily anymore , but still , i miss you ..

2011-04-30T05:03:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th Birthday my beloved Adeline'sister ! ♥♥♥

Had lots of fun and laughter last night at Cineleisure to celebrate Adeline's birthday tgt with Elaine , Peiling , Joycelyn , JiaNi , Lynn , Shuzhen and Jovin ! ♥♥♥♥♥

29/04/2011
It was the first day of my MYE , English paper ! Totally no confident at all , first time like this ! But im too excited for the night event so i think i dont care at all :/ Omg why am i like this ! :( But anw , dismissed and end my paper at 12.10pm , had lunch in school with Bokmay and homed .

Prepared and everything , cabbed down to Bedok to meet MarcusLim , slacked and i got owned by him totally -___-
Bus to Bedok interchange at 7plus to meet Jovin , trained to town at ION to buy present ! Walked to Cineleisure , and my mood at that time was so happy , LOL .
Slacked at Scape with Jovin and met Shane while waiting for other sisters to come .

And finally Elaine , Joycelyn , Lynn and JiaNi came first ! ♥
Swensens at Cineleisure to celebrate Adeline's 20th birthday ! Last minute plan to give Adeline a surprise since she haven't reach by lying to her that Elaine , Joycelyn and JiaNi cant make it down to Cine . So Elaine , Joycelyn and JiaNi went to hide while Lynn and Jovin accompany me and wait for Adeline and etc. to arrive . Finally the birthday girl , Peiling and Shuzhen reached , had our supper at Swensens while waiting for the clock to strike twelve . Elaine , Joycelyn and JiaNi appear with a cake at 12.00am sharp and all of us sang a birthday song so loud for her making her blush ! Photos will be upload soon :)
Peiling and Elaine is the joker of the day ! I can laugh till my throat itchy seriously , LOL .
Chill and slack around at Scape till 2plus , cabbed home after that . So damn tired that i fall asleep immediately . Hehehe , but i really had lots of fun ! Love all my pretty sisters ! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

30/04/2011
Lucky my maid woke me up at 10plus to sign some stupid receipt . Went to prepare and off to Cck to meet up with Adeline , JiaNi and Lynn . Trained to Tiong Bahru and bused to Bukit Merah to meet Elaine for Body&Foot therapy @ Bio Energie , after that cabbed to Tiong Bahru Plaza to have our lunch @ Rajah Inn , mini steamboat ! Full full full ! Cabbed back home after that , im mad tired seriously , doesn't had sufficient sleep ! And gonna have tuition tmr , lucky there's no school on Monday ! Alright , i shall go and watch my tv now ! Bye people !
And lastly , Happy Birthday Adeline ! ♥♥

Ending a picture with JiaNi , Joycelyn , me , Peiling and Lynn . (In order)

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2011-04-24T01:11:00.001-07:00

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2011-04-14T22:55:00.000-07:00

BASS DOWN LOW

Hi people ! My mood today was so good and i dont know why ! Hehehe , school ended early at 9.45am today because of speech day ! Called my dad and pick me up from school because im lazy and im sure that the bus stop sure packed ! Know what , my stomach/gastric problem is acting up again , what is this ! :( But luckily it isn't as bad as last time that i have to run to the toilet once every half an hour , LOL . So now i have to cut down on having spicy food again , hate it ! Hehe , and i love ElaineTay because she says im a good girl nowadays so she bought me contact lens ! My father asked me why i meet Adeline and didnt meet Elaine , but the problem is , their workplace is different ! So far , so i can only go down to JP to see Adeline . I dont even know Adeline working at JP also :/ Im so surprise that my dad allow me to go out tmr , cool ! Fianlly get to meet up with my sisters again , after so so so so long . Happy me !

-D.TWN
You know what , i hate those quarrelings with you . So what do you mean by "You should be honoured ..." ? Trying to imply that im not really exits in your life ? Well , you should be matured enough to think that i've been giving in all along . Be it whether have i done smth wrong or not , i still apologise , it's not because i say it for the sake of saying it , it's because i still care . I tried my best to prevent quarrelings between us , but end up we still do . You can say whatever you want , because im not gonna give up easily as you said , "I'll be here for you when you're in need of me . I wont be like those other guys you know , whom come and go ."

2011-04-10T04:17:00.000-07:00

Please , stay strong , dont give up even if i've fall .

Jailbroken my phone ! Super duper happy , my phone looks so pretty now ! Just like before , hehehe . Currently editing some ringtones and syncing photos , and after that im done with everything ! Cool ttm ! Not forgetting my Burberry themes and Bite SMS is back !
School's tmr , omg . Had tuition earlier on , was busy doing my phone than homework , LOL . And now im super hungry , its been so long since i ate pizza ! :(
Sister's birthday tmr ! And im not getting her any presents or surprise ! Im just gonna wish her Happy birthday , bad right ? I dont care , hahaha ! Followed by my father's birthday and Adeline's . April babies ! And soon after Adeline's is exam's birthday ! Please please please time pass faster !
Had my chinese oral on friday , cmi ttm :( I phrase a word wrongly cause im too nervous and also the word sounds so rhyme with the phrase . LOL , i wonder if the teacher heard it , cause she keep looking around instead of looking at me :/ Hope she didnt ! Hahaha ! After my oral went to study with Linda , study awhile and we start chit chatting , failed ! :(
Anw , had a war with my sister ytd because i commented on her status in fb , she keep removing ! I got so fed up so i went to messed up her bed and threw all her soft toys/pillow on the floor , she actually went to took a photo of how i messed up her bed and upload to fb ! Stupid right , but we were both laughing so hard . LOL .
Ok , my phone's done . Time to let my brother to use laptop !

2011-04-09T04:43:00.000-07:00

Karma .

Had a haircut because my fringe too long and irritating ! And now i look like some small kid with a short fringe ! -___- Faster grow ! What a boring saturday , hate it . And i've been sneezing since ytd , having flu ! Exams coming in less than a month ! HAPPY GIRL ! Holidays ! Im coming ! ^^
Now my relatives gossiping about me , wtf . All come telling my mother some lame stuffs , i feel like laughing ! LOL . Whats wrong with them , one family need quarrel till like that !
I love bullying my sister and brother , i can laugh like mad , seriously . Especially my sister , so fun ! HAHA .
So fast Monday is coming , ewww :( Anw , there's some lifeless people asking stupid things in formspring , funny ! Having tuition tmr , which means i can jailbreak my phone ! Cool ! Likea finally , miss my Burberry themes and Bite sms so much ! Hehehe ! I fell asleep ytd night :( And ps MarcusLim and Doven , hehe . Should i stay awake tonight ? Im so bored :(

Anyone believe in karma ? Cause i do .

2011-04-03T03:38:00.000-07:00

Trust .

I wanna dye my hair again ! :( Was busy playing changing msn picture ytd and realise all my photos with my brown hair ! I miss my brown hairrrrrrrrr .
School's tmr , sian ttm -.-
Had a tiff with Marcus.L ytd midnight cause of a bitch , idiotic lame shit .
Had my tuition earlier on , cleared all my homework and stuffs , so tired that i fell asleep on my sofa . And Amanda came over to make so much stupid noise on my talkbox to wake me up and now she's currently over at my place , spammed her talkbox and msn , LOL . Im so hungry right now ! Just a short update to make my blog look alive for at least one week or more :/ Might not be updating next week as parents going overseas again , i guess . Hate them going overseas , no money for me to spent ! Ok , im going down to buy cup noodles with Amanda Naomi . Bye peeps .

2011-04-02T05:18:00.000-07:00

En Amour Avec Toi. ♥

Okay , back to post while im waiting for my parents to be back with my prata ! Hehe . Updated my phone to 4.3.1 , before that i updated to 4.3 and all my jailbreak stuffs gone which make me so damn angry ! But soon get over it and updating to the latest one ^^ Waiting for the jailbreak to release ! Guess no more outing for this whole month except for Adeline's birthday :( After that exams ! How fast right , i like ! Should i delete the past in my blog ? Everytime when i look back , so many memories , sigh :( And and and , i miss AAAS-C so much ! Its been so long since i last seen them , night life night life ! Tuition starting from tmr , im gonna buck up everything ! So good girl right :P Anw , my sister sprain her leg , and it look so swollen like pig trotters . I've never sprain my leg before , and i thought everytime i twisted my leg , it was sprain until now . LOL , i know imma noobie . I have the urge of playing back AuditionSea , thanks to Doven :( But , my desktop spoilt . How how how , i used to play Audition to vent my anger , owning people there and now i guess my skills gone rusty . Im gonna ask my father to hire people to fix my desktop soon and start playing on holidays ! Hehehe . I feel like adopting hamster , should i ? :/ P.S , i somehow indirectly killed my hamster last time , LOL . He was naughty , so i dont wanna wash his cage and feed him . So he's dead , LOLOLOLOL !

2011-04-01T07:56:00.000-07:00

Im not giving up , im just telling myself to endure .

Sorry for not updating for so long , as parents was away for one week . Actually i've got alot of things to update about , but i forgotten alrd :/ But anw , that damn Zigui was away to Vietnam for afew days and i've no one to turn to , and lucky he's back now but i dont know why after he came back he became more and more pig -.- Sleep and sleep non stop , so its like no differences ? No outing for these few weeks as exams is coming soon , too bad that i've got no motivation to study at all so ... ? :/ Okay anw , DnT is totally wasting my time , i dont even know what to do anymore . Sigh . Jiahui came to fetch me from school and headed down to JP to look for Adeline as she's working there . Had our lunch at PizzaHut and Linda came down to meet us for Kbox , singing session till 7pm and Jiahui went back while i accompany Linda for her dinner ! Im seriously broke , pathetic me left 2dollars in my wallet :( And i have to borrow from Adeline , walaooooo . Now my throat like so itchy :( Ok time to visit my bed , have to visit grandfather tmr ! Nights people !

2011-03-20T00:20:00.001-07:00

Leave everything behind .

18/03/2011
Elaine's off day , father drove me over to BPP to meet her and Jessica , her friend for lunch . Planned to go to town but not enough time so bused over to Bugis to do some shopping instead , was moody all the way though i tried to control my emotional . Promised Berwin to go and look for him at his shop awhile but ended up i didnt , and its not the first time alrd . LOL , so he texted me and got pissed :/ Parents came over and fetch me back , feeling so tired because the day before i was staying up the whole night on my bed doing nothing . Straight away dozed off after bathing .

19/03/2011
Cine today ! Sneaked out to meet AmandaWong for Mac because we were both hungry , after eating and went back home to sleep . Woke up at 11plus and get myself prepared to meet Adeline tgt for lunch . Trained over to Nex and settled our lunch @Yoshinoya , had lots of complains and complains . Went down to shop after lunch , i was really tired that i had a nap there . Cab down to Scape to meet Joycelyn and JiaNi for the flea , slacking over there till 9plus , cab to Panjang to put their stuffs and cab back to Cine to meet Elaine and Adeline for supper . Supper at HK Cafe , laugh super loud because of Elaine's nonsense . Chilled awhile at Scape and cab back home , straight went moody . I dont feel like sleeping but end up i fell asleep :/

Just woke up not long ago , and i hate it . School starts tmr , like wtf , and now im counting down for May MYE , 2 more months ! Ok i shall save all the rantings now , its too much .

2011-03-15T02:33:00.001-07:00

Compromise .

I just woke up not long ago ! School starting soon and i hate it , omfg . Anw , had so much fun with Adeline'sister ytd , laughing non stop ! Get myself prepared and meet her over @Lot1 at 1plus , settle our lunch at Lot1 PizzaHut . Realize we gonna late for work and we have to rush after eating , trained to Nex and we have to run with my heels on make my leg so pain that i woke up this afternoon and my foot got cramp :/ We were camwhoring and playing around , my shop have been at Nex for quite a some time and till now then i realize that there's this bubble tea shop have the same standard as KOI , COOL . Of course same thing , ordered my favourite Ice cream milk tea ! Making a fool out of myself when im pronouncing the shop name "ISETAN" , Adeline cant stop laughing at my pronunciation ! Having moodswing after laughing so much , as usual , i dont know why :/ I forever cant stay hyper for the whole day , hate myself for this ! And im growing fatter soon ! I had Pizza for lunch at 1plus , and fried noodle at 4plus when my parents came over , straight have a cup of ice cream milk tea after that . Worst still , knocked off and had my supper at KFC with Adeline and another staff named Huimin . FAT NOT TELL ME :( We had some serious talkings , and i realize i should be contented .

Currently waiting for my sister to be back with my KFC , fat fat fat !!!

After listening to Huimin's story , i really feel touched . I must learn to be brave and independent from now onwards , i cant break down so easily anymore . Im experiencing what Huimin experienced before when she's in her secondary school life , totally same situation and of course she know how i feel . She said things are going to be fine after some time , yes , time is what matter most . Because its just 6 more months , everything will be over soon , i must bear with it . Indeed , its really tiring and have the urge of giving up . But its not worth it , no matter how hard i try , its a sure thing that i'll still complain sometimes . But complain will be complain , still i must continue with it . Obstacles coming one by one , finish dealing with one and another coming . I wonder whats next , im a negative and sensitive person , i cant help but to think what if this and that happend instead of thinking of the positive stuffs . But for me , i find it there's not totally wrong for a person being negatively . Because being a negative person , at least i wont pin on high hopes on things , i will prepare myself and be ready for the worst to come and overcome it . But disadvantages is , people around will feel tired of giving so much advices and yet your thinking is still the same . My only qns is , when will all these end ?

Camwhoring with Adeline'sister !

2011-03-12T00:30:00.001-08:00

Come And Go .

It's holiday likea finally , but sad to say that its just one week .
Anw , im so in love with the "i love you" heart shape pillow that Elaine bought for me , i would hug it everyday and think of everyone of them when i look at it . Hehe , and also to remind me to be stronger :)
6 more months to N level , happy + nervous max ! Hehe . All i have to do is just endure and endure , time flies rightttt ? :D I've receive my result and im so super shock that i passed my English , LOLOLOL . But my Chinese deproved :/ And i got the schedule of my MYE exams , ohno ..... If i fail my N level my parents gonna go crazy i swear .
My sister is currently baking some cookies and i went to disturb her , ate her cookies and it taste not bad ! But she scolded me for being so greedy , went into the kitchen and straight away aim her cookies . LOL .

I think im getting used to it , my heart is getting numb . I dont feel that hurt anymore even though sometimes i'll still tear at night . A billion thanks to those people who knock some senses into me , put up with me patiently , guide and support me all along . Without you guys i really dont even know what else can i do , all along im suffering like some shit and its time to buck myself up . I might get hurt , i might take the wrong path , i might be tired , i might lost my way , i might need to take one big round , but all these obstacles i still have to overcome it myself no matter what . People can only guide me through but they cant get me to the place i want , no point crying over the spilt milk if i choose to walk the path myself . Thanks for making me stronger .

2011-03-05T01:26:00.000-08:00

Take me away .

Its 4.30pm now and i just woke up not long ago , pig much ? LOL , anw , got home at 3plus ytd , so damn tired . So ytd my mood for the whole day was so high even in the morning when i go to school , had my maths retest and everything . Went home to get prepared and off to Nex to wait for Adeline to knock off , accompany Shane for his dinner at Nex while waiting for the time to pass . cab to Cineleisure to meet others at 11plus . "How do you know" , movie title , comedy movie . But you know , my english sucks and thats a english movie , so i dont understand a thing . Me , Elaine , Joycelyn and Adeline falling asleep soon so we went out of the theater half way and left JiaNi and Jovin inside because they were laughing away so happily while watching . So all of us went over to Scape to slack and chill around , cab home at 2plus . Bathe and everything , suppose to online using my phone and end up im leaving my phone on my bed vibrating non stop till i wake up at 7plus and realize it . LOL , going to lot with siblings soon and i dont know why the hell my sister aren't back yet -.-
Time to change my blog songs , sick of hearing those sad songs and remind me of fucked up people .

Im gonna delete most of my links now , so many dead links and some dont even bother to inform me .

2011-02-26T22:40:00.000-08:00

Shout like the whole world owes you a living .

I seriously hate Sunday , Monday and Wednesday alot . Everytime spoil my mood , fuck .
Had a good sleep from ytd 3plus till now 1plus , my left eyelid abit swollen ! :( Feel likea blue black but i like the feeling of blueblack ! Hehe , so i kept on rubbing my eye !
I had two meals of Mac ytd , im going to be super fat soon ! Ok now my mood is being screwed up , hate this feeling ! Feel like sleeping all the way , i know i've been repeating the same over and over again but seriously , i wanna sleep all the way and dont wake up . Avoiding reality , reality is cruel and i hate it . No matter how much i've tried to do so and everything its still doesnt make any differences . I've been trying to control my own temper , faking a smile and told myself to move on because life still has to go on and i cant just give up like this . But ended up i still break down , i wanna give up everything so much that i've been awaiting for every weekends to arrive so that i can forget everything permenantly .
I used to get fucked up over minor stuffs , be it being disturbed or sarcastically at . I kept quiet doesnt mean im not angry or nice to bully , i just dont wanna entertain some faggot which affect my mood but still , i failed . Damn , fml .

Off to prepare now , im late for meeting Amanda.W !

2011-02-26T02:57:00.001-08:00

KTV @ Bugis TopOne

I dont know why , my mood just went up so high ytd .
On the 25th which is ytd , woke up and didnt went to school due to some lame reason . So i went back to sleep and woke up at 1plus to get myself prepare , cab over to meet Adeline near her house area and bused over to Dhoby Ghaut to meet Jovin and Joyceline ! :) Bought out GongCha and walked over to Cineleisure to have our dinner @HongKong Cafe ! Super full and im so clumsy that i need Adeline to help me with my food , LOLOL ! Forced Adeline to have her medicine and headed to scape to slack for awhile and kill our time , walked over to 313 Somerset to decorate the cake for JiaNi , hehe our birthday girl ! All along was Jovin and Joyceline decorating , while im busy pressing the chocolate cream and eat ! Adeline was busy helping me pressed it into my mouth , i know disgusting . LOL . Finished decorating and bused to Bugis to meet Elaine and waited for her to knock off from work , JiaNi came afterwards . After work and its play timeeeee , ok i admit i was sitting down there staring into space , smsing , looking at other babes singing and taking pictures down there . And poor Adeline was not feeling well so she slept with all the noises create by ElaineTay , i wonder how you sleep leh Adeline ! Elaine was the champion , for staying so hyper all the way from 10plus till 2plus , all of us got owned :/ Cab home after that , its abit tired but fun !
Elaine dont allow me to have outing with them very very soon because of exams ! :( Sigh .

Got to go ! Bye .

2011-02-19T23:07:00.000-08:00

Speechless

You know , i hate Sundays . Because it also means that Monday is coming and there's school .
Im feeling so fucked up ytd , i dont even know what should i do . Damn .
Anw , met Elaine for breakfast ytd morning , i rant so much things to her ! Mood got spoilt after some stuffs , straight away sleep after bathing when i reach home . But anw , i love my new bed sheets . LOLOL , so cuteeeee ! Going for dinner later with sister ! Hehe , shall go and prepare now .
I know this post is short , because i've got nothing to write about , just wanna update so that my blog doesnt look so dead :/

I dont know what to do now , can you guys please stop it , im feeling so scared that i trembled . So many things happened to me alrd , i want peace .

2011-02-18T05:49:00.001-08:00

You'll never know how it feels to be like this .

Hi people ! Im back to posting !
Ok so , no outing this week with my babes because of my parents -.- Make me so angryyyyy .
Anw , had cross country today , same thing , it rains every year when we're having cross country . LOL , so i tell myself next year im not gonna go for cross country anymore . Dismissed at 9.45am today , so freaking early that me , Gina and Bokmay bused to JP to have our breakfast/lunch @ PizzaHut and we have to wait outside till 11am to open . Been eating PizzaHut for 2 days ! And now im broke , so freaking full , went up to my shop to charge my phone and off to WestCcoastPark for cross country with Bokmay while Gina went home . We lost our way and so we ended up taking cab over :/ Walk in the rain and im sweating like hell , imagine i really so enthu about it and run . LOL . Called my dad up and asked him to come over and fetch me because no cab at all ! Reached home and straight away sleep , and now im having a slight flu :/ Gonna meet Elaine tmr for breakfast ! Hehe ♥
Ok i shall go to sleep now ! Im feeling so terrible :(

2011-02-05T08:54:00.001-08:00

Outing with my babes again ! ♥

Hi people ! So basically i woke up at 11plus today to get myself prepared ! ^^
Bathe and everything , awaiting for my babes to arrive , love and miss then so much ! Had buffet over at my place , finish eating and then glambled with Elaine , Elaine's boyf , Adeline , Jovin , my brother and my father ! Hahaha ! Won alot though :P Gambled till 4pm and cab over to Adeline's place after that as she wanna get changed , while Elaine went home because she's not feeling well :(
Met Joycelyn and JiaNi over at Adeline's place , and bus over to town for dinner @ Marche . Another friend of theirs came and join us too ! And after eating we decided to go someone's place to gamble , so we called cab and we were all so surprise that we called a Limo cab ! Likea cool only seriously , and we were all like party and taking photos in the Limo cab . Cabbed till Clementi , and we gambled at a place of my babes' friend named Kelvin ! His parents like so cute ! Gambled till 10plus and my babes went off to PH while me cab home , last min meeting Zhong for awhile , totally mood ruined because of smth epic -.- Bused home after that , apply my eye mask and off to sleep . Hehe , tiring but fun ! Next outing gonna have Ben&Jerry's ice cream with my babes ! ♥ !

There's 15 days of CNY , but to me , only the first 3 days are CNY because i think its the main days ? LOL . So now CNY its over for me , school starting :( Sad ! But i damn kiasu , im looking forward to March holiday alrd ! Hehehe !

2011-02-04T10:20:00.000-08:00

Second day of Chinese New Year !

Hehe , i bet you guys received lots of red packets right ! ^^
But seems like lots of people dont likw CNY this year eh :( Im like the only one who so enthu about it , and i really love it alot :/
Anw , heard that the zodiac of dog is lucky this year ? *Insert happy face* Hehehee :P
Okay , on the New Year Eve went down to Bugis last min and bought my heels . Trained home with a big bully after that to rush for Reunion dinner , steamboat ! ^^
Ohya , and and and Happy Birthday MarcusTeo ! You're finally 18 ! Happy hor ! And stop being sarcastic saying that you miss the age of 17 ! :( Woke up by MarcusTeo's call today , get prepared and headed down to Yewtee Point to have lunch with him and Jiongwen @ HongKong Cafe because i didnt attend his 18th birthday celebration due to the timing he set . Finish eating and parents came to fetch me , headed down to Lim Chu Kang to visit relatives . So freaking boring there can ! :( But i manage to make it through all the way from 4plus to 12plus , power right ? :D
Uploading pictures to fb now , and tmr buffet at my house with relatives and my babes ! Hehe , happy girl only ! Okay i shall stop here , pictures are ready !

2011-01-31T01:59:00.001-08:00

I LOVE AWESOME BABES ! ♥

I know im fat in those pictures ! BUT SHHHH :(((((

Anw , i've been going down to Bugis every Saturday and going down to town at night for supper with those babes above ^^ They never failed to make me laugh and listen to my complains , ♥s ! Done updating with my phone and now im blogging likea finally . Chinese New Year is coming and im quite excited ^^ , because its a few days of holiday and we gonna have buffet at my place with all my babes and steamboat with them afterwards . Hehe , i always miss hanging out with them when we're going to say Goodbye :( I love every Saturday because i can see them , :D But i was mad tired on last Saturday because i don't have enough sleep :( My whole eyes were red and swollen and i fall asleep immediately once i lied on my bed . Im so keen for next supper ^^

Things has been going on smoothly recently except for some matters , shall not elaborate further . School still as per normal , but im always so tired in class :( Keep on raining recently and i hate it , though its nice to sleep at night . People squeezing while boarding the bus and walking on the street , i dont like !
Had a talk with Xiangling on KikMessenger earlier on , and it has been bothering me since just now , maybe i should really think about it and reflect on myself . And i really really thank her for believing me and be there to listen and tell me what to do :')

And i would like to thank these people specially when im feeling down recently because of some matter .

-ElaineTay , my beloved sister
Elaine , you know im really glad that i have you in my life :) You've been a great sister to me , lecture me when im wrong , encourage me when im lack of confident . Being there for me to listen to my rantings and tell me what i should do . Care for me like my real blood sister , i love your advices because it makes sense and it always makes me tear although im trying my best to control it . I know sometimes i did things overboard but you'll never get blowed up by me , yet telling me not to do it again . I know i disappointed you sometimes and not listening to you , but you still talk to me patiently . You're one of the best person i've ever seen , stay pretty . Love you ! :)

-AdelineOng , my beloved sister
Ah qian ! Same thing , im also glad that i have you as my sister . I remember there's a time you helped me with discipline matter , you didnt scold me for doing that but tell me dont repeat my mistake again because that will be the last time you're helping me with this kind of matter . I love your crazyness , you never failed to make me laugh with your laughters and lame jokes ! I always go to you when im being moodless because you will rant with me :) Though recently you've change to like ... abit fierce when you talk to me ? Or issit im being sensitive ? But still , i really appreciate you . Faster find a boyf and get married ! I want VIP seat ok ! ^^ Love you !

-MarcusLim , my beloved rabbit brother
Hi rabbit ! Though we know each other not long , but you'll always cheer me up and disturb me . You're just like a brother to me , i know i did make you angry sometimes because of my attitude , but you still forgive me after i apologised . Maybe you get irritated by my stuffs because i keep complaining , but you still showed concern to me whenever i need someone to talk to . And i really hope that you can win her heart soon , all the best ok ! Remember our promise too ! :)

-Xiangling , my good listener and advicer
Stupid Xiang ! You've been disturbing me since last year ! But i dont find you irritating , really . I love talking to you ever since you can read my mind , know what im thinking about . But slowly i realise that whenever people are feeling down they go to you , but how about you yourself ? Spare a thought for yourself sometimes , when you're upset who will you go to ? You keep everything to yourself instead and act that you're happy infront of everyone . I just want to tell you that you can always come to me , i dont mind being your listening ear because you always be there for me when i need someone who can understand how i feel . Im really really very touched that you believe me when others dont . Remember this , we're classmates , we're friends though we just know each other for 1year plus . Be happy and crazy always , dont bottle everything up if you feel unhappy :)

-LimZigui , my beloved tortise brother
Tortise ! I love your singing ! Haha ! You too , its true that we know each other for a short period of time and we're getting close like brother and sister . You always tell me what to do and encourages me , tell me not to be afraid of anything because this is a part of life and i must go through it . You believe i can do it because you know im strong enough to overcome this , you always told me that you're just 8 digits away , you dont come and go , you'll always be here for me . Brother , dont be sad over a girl that doesnt worth your love , there's lots of better girls outside . I know its hard on you but i trust you , i believe that you can do it right ? I experienced it before , im a weak girl as you know , since i can overcome this obstacles so why cant you ? :) I know though you're scolding her a bitch but deep down your heart you still remember the memories you both had . Everything takes time , trust me tortise , you can do it . Same thing , i'll be here for you when you need me . Be happy alright , :)

2011-01-23T05:07:00.000-08:00

Fucked up mood .

I fucking hate it when i have this kind of fucked up feelings , and i've been feeling this way recently for some fucked up reason . And i mean seriously , i thought this year will be a better year for me but ended up .. -.- Fuck you guys .

Just the start of the year , im sick and tired of everything , be it studies or relationship/friendship . Friends whom come and go , play and throw and whatever you guys call that . I've nowhere to vent my anger to except for Blogger and Facebook . And when i want you guys to cheer me up and yet you all dont even seems to give a fucking damn so i might as well just forget it . Happy moment always last for a few hours and then life gave me fucked up time , im tired of overcoming all those obstacles and circumstances . Because no matter how hard i tried to make it through , life is still as fucked up as ever .
And i dont know why , im forever failed in my studies , i've got no motivation to do work or study for my N level . Im still slacking away likea bitch , while my dearest babe working so hard towards N level . And this is also why i prefer outside world than school life , fml .
Im not boasting but lots of people told me that im getting mature in terms of my thinking , i know the way i act still likea kid . LOL . But its all thanks to Elaine.T and Adeline.O , my two dearest sister , they brain-washed me for 1year plus , telling me whats right and whats wrong , asked me to be nice to my parents and must start to think because im 17 this year . Im still trying ...

Somehow , i miss my brown hair ..

Anw , anyone wanna see my drunk face ? :P

CUTE HOR ! :D Hehehee .

2011-01-20T01:43:00.001-08:00

I made the choice to finally go because i can't stand this pain anymore, it's time for my last tear to fall and me to smile .

Finally got the time to post and i know my blog is rotting . I dont care anw , im so fucked up now because of my foursquare , suddenly not working anymore on fb -.-
Just back from my hair treatment not long ago and im feeling so tired , lucky there's laptop here for me to do everything on my iPhone at all once .
D&T seriously sucks big time , waste so much of my time . Im lack of sleep because of D&T too !
I dyed my hair for a few times and i realise there's issin't any much differences -.- So forget it .
Im really really very excited for Chinese New Year to arrive , not because of red packets but the atmosphere like nice ! Last year i didnt enjoy because of some problems and this year im gonna eat alot ! Hehe .

Fml , i hate guys who likes to trampled over girls and treat them like toy .

2011-01-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

School , Stress , N level .

Sorry for not posting my blog for sucha fucking long time because im waiting for some photos and also my laptop was being confiscated . Others had alrd wish everybody MerryChristmas and HappyNewYear while im still stuck at 2010 till now its my first post on 2011 . LOL . Ok so damn sorry about it .

School started not long ago and now im sick :/ Nice . First day of school i had hair check and i was being caught and asked to dye back , went over to Emmeline's place to dye and realise there's not much different . Second day i was being sent home and now my hair is so damn black that i look like some china dog , LOLOLOL . So i make a big fuss about it to my mother because i really really cant stand the blackness of my hair and i burst out crying , throwing temper and stuffs until my mother cant take it and promise me to let me dye back . To think back , i , myself cant believe that i actually cried over my hair , see how much i love my hair . LOLOL !
Emmeline told me that i should really cut down on checking my phone or texting continuously in class because N level is coming real fast and i've got to buck up on every of my subjects . I almost retain last year , teachers are the one who pulled me up ..

So currently im transferring stuffs into my iPhone and i hate it because i know nothing aboout iPhone and i didnt know that its so troublesome *Suaku* I suddenly forgot how to make ringtone , i anyhow click it and finally im done after trying for 4 times . Hehe .

Specially for my grandmother; I went to visit the doctor ytd with my grandmother , and because i feel so teribble that i attitude and raise my voice infront of other people at my grandmother . And my grandmother forgot to brought her ez-link card out so she asked me to take bus to home and she herself walked all the way back . She didnt scold me or anything , and yet she still take care of me , asking me whether im hungry , feed me medicine and taking water for me , brewed herbal tea for me and coming into my room once in awhile checking whether im still having fever . Im so sorry , from the bottom of my heart . Im really sorry ..

I feel so giddy now after having all disgusting medicine . And btw , i chance upon Edison when im on the way to take bus home after seeing doctor ytd . He saw my unglam loh ! HAHAHA , paiseh sia . So he looked at my pale face and told me that he send me home cause later i faint as i feel giddy and i cant stand properly . LOL . I know im weak :( Thanks uh .

:( Shall go and take a rest now . Ohya , and a Happy (very)Belated New Year . LOL .

2010-12-20T18:26:00.003-08:00

Happy Birthday to me ! :D

Firstly , thanks for those people who had wished me happy birthday ^^ Hehe .
Town with Emmeline , Marcus and Clarence today , shopped for my father's Christmas present and went to have HK cafe . Emmeline and Clarence left me and Marcus at the restaurant while both of them said that they go buy clothes first . And so in the meanwhile im being disturbed by Marcus and he's snatching food with me , LOL .
Emmeline and Clarence came back with nothing and told me they cant find the clothes so we continue eating , and what suprise me the most is that they surprised me with a cake at HK cafe that make me feel so touched and also abit ps cause people looking at us . Heheh , its the first time my friends did this to me leh , so im lost for words and keep saying omg . Hahaha ! And so i understand that they actually went to buy cake instead of "buying clothes" . How sweet right ?! Omg ♥♥

Clarence went off first and the three of us headed down to Haji lane for sheesha , my first time sheesha-ing leh , dont laugh k ! Shopped awhile before we went for sheesha because Marcus told me that Spencer and co. will be joining us and i was like .. shocked ? :/ I thought he lied to me . LOL . Spencer , Yiyang , Desheng and Boonyong came down at 9pm and we sheesha till around 10plus . Went seperate way with them . Cab Marcus back , Jurong for some stuffs and back to Gombak to meet them again , both me and Emmeline was having car sick . LOLOL ! Cab back home and reached home around 12plus . I was very very tired but i seriously had a very very fun day :)

Thanks guys , especially my dearest Emmeline ♥

2010-12-19T08:35:00.001-08:00

One more day !

A few more mins to my birthday ! Heheh , those pictures up there were taken few days ago i guess ? Adeline's off day and she and Joycelyn came to bring me to walk around at Nex because i didnt really shop around ever since i start working there :) Hehehe .

Kinda excited for tmr's , going out to town with Emmeline and Marcus for my birthday ! I bet Emmeline going to take lots and lots of photos !

Working at Nex today , meet Adeline for breakfast @ Yoshinoya . First time eating , ok im suaku again . One more thing is that me and Adeline fall in love with Andersen's ice cream ! Keep on buying ! Hehehe .

Ok , im getting busy soon !

What i want is just a birthday wish from you .. i know its impossible but i'll wait till the day you finally wish me . So i know it means you dont hate me anymore .

2010-12-18T04:07:00.001-08:00

并不是每个爱情都是长久的，但友情是永远的。

Anyway , had an awesome day ytd with Elaine ^^
Prepared and meet her @ town , went to shop for Christmas present :) And i dont know why , i was sweating even though im at air conditional shopping center :( Had our lunch @ HK cafe and we saw handsome guys ! And i mean , its really handsome , hehehe . Its my first time eating HK cafe , i know im suaku :(
Walked over to Cine to buy smth and bused over to Bugis for Elaine's nails appointment , met up with Elaine's friend and trained back to town to met up with Adeline for supper at Cine . Crap alot with Elaine the whole day :) Adeline and another friend of theirs went for movie while me and Elaine went home . When we was waiting for cab , there's a group angmohs trying to entertain us and also pissed Elaine off at the same time :/ Reached home at around 1am , my mother was happily trying on the shoes now i bought for her as Christmas present . And i realise that i will feel nauseous whenever i just filled my stomach and get on the car , the feeling sucks ttm . And also , after a long day of laughters , i tends to think alot about my own life . I think i should get a job soon , i want branded stuffs , i dont want spend my parents' money anymore . Its time for me to grow up at this age and stop fooling around .

2 more days to meet up with my dearest Emmeline ! :) Excited not ? Hehehe .

I prevent myself from falling in love because i was afraid i might get hurt again like how i used to be , but i failed to do so yet regret and blame myself for being too weak when i fall for someone . I want a guy that can lend me his shoulder to lie on when im tired , pamper and dote me , protect me when i get hurt , hug me and keep quiet when i cry and tell me everything will be alright .
Sometimes how i wish i was drunk , forget about everything and let me be wild . I dont know why , i just miss you , suddenly . I know im not suppose to , i know things not gonna be the same anymore , i know everything its impossible , but i still do .
Everyone has their own guy or girl they love the most , and when everything become a past , you kept this person in your memory , a very beautiful memory .
When people asked me "Why is this person so special ?"
My replied was "Because he's unique and i cant find another person like him , and also because he's the one that i really fell in love with ."

Dont ask anything about all the emotional stuffs i posted , i wont say unless i want to ..

2010-12-13T05:00:00.000-08:00

Steaboat like finally !

Finally gotten my sec4 books today early in the morning tgt with Emmeline :) Called Marcus upteen times but he didnt pick up because he wanna have lunch with us , so me and Emmeline bused over to Westmall to have our lunch first @ KFC . Finish eating and Marcus FINALLY call me , and plan to go for steamboat @ Yewtee , double lunch ! Asked my sister tag along too :) While waiting for sister to finish preparing , went over to Marcus's place to visit his super ultra cute nephew ! Played with him awhile and headed to Yewtee point for steamboat , not bad . And its like finally i get to eat steamboat after craving for so long (Y)
Thanks Emmeline for helping us peel the prawns :D Hehehe .

And now im lacking of cash ... :( I needa buy Christmas present and celebration for my birthday :( Omg .. how ..

2010-12-07T23:38:00.000-08:00

"Im A Duck !"

Currently waiting for my Mac delivery to reach , so while waiting im here to post .
I feel like writing my feelings out but , due to some problem i cant -.-
And now im starting to lost trust for some people that i've been trusted all along and never doubt them .

Anyway , had a day off and went down to JP to look for Emmeline because its been a long time since i last saw her . And she taught me how to suck the helium balloon's air , fun !
And today im staying at home because i was so tired that i cant opened my eyes and get out of my bed this morning , and i've got a feeling that i feel like watching Boys Over Flower all over again so i went to search for my disc , imma so delighted when i finally found my disc but im so angry when the disc doesnt work -.- So now im at youtube watching it :/

School's starting soon , and i dont like because there'e tons of homework and i've to stress over exams again like i always did . I dont mind that holidays are boring because its way too much better than school , LOLOLOLOL ! Enough of my rantings ...

Bye ..

BALLOONS ! :)

One more day , you're going in for NS .. :(

2010-12-05T18:24:00.001-08:00

A.N.W.J ♥

I've been having a mixed feelings nowadays , i dont know why . I feel like spending my life just being busy everyday and occupied my mind from thinking too much .
Back from Thailand few days ago , and been neglecting Emmeline after i came back because i've to go different place to work . Went FarEast to work two days back , Xiangling and Chantel came over and look for me , Xiangling used my shop's phone to prank people and disturb me -.- LOL .
Actually i cant wait to leave my school , im kinda bored of studying in that school , regret of knowing some fucked up people which still cant grow up though they're 17 . LOL ;/ Ok stop stop .
I bought a pair of contact lens rfom Thailand , and is too big for my eyes that when i blink the contact lens drop out , LOLOLOL ! I learn a thailand langauge that Elaine taught me , "Lao ger gun" . I find it sound abit wrong thats why i keep disturb thai people using this word whenever i go there , it means "see you again" . LOL .

Ok stop here , cause i dont what to write , im feeling too vexed .

2010-11-25T06:03:00.000-08:00

Break Your Heart

Time to clear the dust on my blog now , i never touch on my blogger for quite sometime so now im blogging :)
Been going "work" continuously , and finally im down with cough recently , not because im too tired , because i kept eating heaty stuffs :/

And there's one thing that makes me and Emmeline so fucking angry . Seriously , i dont know whats wrong with all our relatives nowadays . Only know how to talk behind our backs , complain and twist the story -.- Its like , they took our kindness for granted . I mean seriously , i admit that i've been rude to my aunty last time because whenever she talked to me nicely i just walked away without replying her . And now after i start working tgt with her in the same shop , i trusted her because she said whatever i told her she wont tell anybody , so i told her about my family and stuffs . End up what i get is being maglin by my mother because my aunty fucking twist the story and landed me into trouble and caused me and my mother to quarrel -.- I dont like her last time is because one year back ago , there's one time im talking with one of the sales girl , Jovin , about my school's stuffs . And my aunty was beside listening but i didnt care much because i think that its ok to let her know what im talking , and after i knock off from my work , i went over to buy some food and she start bitching about me . She fucking told my mother saying that i joined gang or whatever -.- So my mother came and asked me after i came back from buying food , my reply was "What century alrd still gang ? And , who told you ." My mother said its SOMEBODY and when i turn and looked at my aunty , she fucking lower down her head and get her fucking ass into my father's car . So i assume its her because Jovin went back straight after we closed the shop and she's not like those kind who have got nothing better to do and call my mother to say about these , plus when im talking about my school's stuffs there's only Jovin and my aunty there . And when otw sending my aunty back , she's like trying to lick my boots asking me what i want to eat this and that for tmr or whatever shit . And so i confirmed that it was her who told my mother about what gang stuffs because she dont talk to me in this way and then i just turn and attitude her when she asked . So after this matter i kept attitude her and talked to the sales girl aside and stay far away from her till a distances that she cant hear , because arent relatives suppose to be like tgt as one and not twisting the story ? And fyi , she's fucking beside me only and im very sure that she can clearly hear what i said every single thing because there's no customer at all ! So till recently i start to trust her and after she gained my trust , her "hobby" start again , which is bitching about me and drag me down into some stuffs that im not even involve in .
So today i went to JP and purposely stay at the same shop as her , just when i reach the shop , i said "HI" loudly to Peiling and Adeline without looking at her and i dont wanna greet her , i knew that she will go and bitch about me to my Mum , just as i expected , she did . Haha , what i answered my mother was "I said HI loudly what , she also can hear leh ." So my mother asked me why didnt i talk to my aunty , and i keep giving her face . Lol , my mother didnt even stay at the shop for long and when she's at the shop , my aunty was busy talking to her and my father . How did my mother even know that i gave her attitude , true enough ? There's much more things that i did to my aunty just now which makes Emmeline laugh and i guess she's happy with it . Hehehe .
Ok , enough of all my rantings :)

I admit i was touched by your actions , i admit that i always did smth wrong to make you angry , i admit that im not good enough , i admit that im not pretty or cute like your other ex's does . But i'll try my best to be good to you , i dont know what to say to you because im lost for words by what you did . And also , i admit that i dont really trust you because i think that whenever guys want to woo a girl they will did all sorts of sweet stuffs to make the girl happy and be tgt with her , but after tgt , guys changed . I mean its true , this is what i experienced and observed , you told me you wont be like this , i trust you but everything will prove after you finish serving your NS . I'll wait , ♥ .

2010-11-09T07:00:00.000-08:00

I dont expect anything in return , from you .

Im too busy to post my blog and also , im getting more and more lazy nowadays :/
Has been going to JP to help out everyday , and always woke up at around 5-6plus just to check my phone and chat on phone and then not going back to sleep anymore till i straight away went out of my house for work .
And my health is getting weaker and weaker , i keep having stomachache for no reason , guess i really need to go for a check up real soon .
So many things happened after i came back from the Batam trip , which makes me so frustrated and also got to know that though some people who are 17years old doesnt mean that they are mature , and they dont act like one too . Ok , enough of my ranting .

You know i spent two days to paint ONE hand of my nails only ? LOL . Funny much .

2010-11-03T20:59:00.000-07:00

Batam CIP trip :)

Hello ! Im back from Batam ! :) Had lots of fun there , especially the "clubbing" in the night and the afternoon . Also had pillow fight during the blackout at afternoon while having our clubbing halfway . Though the weather there makes me feel irritated , but still fun at night . LOL . Went to orphanage to do painting , went to their school and teach them stuffs but my "students" makes me so frustrated that i leave them alone and caused Gavin and Suiyang named me unhelpful girl :( You know why ! That two little girl keep gossip here and there , i talked to them and they continue gossiping , so what for talking to them and wasting my breathe . LOLOLOLOL ! Ok , let the photo do the talkings , im lazy to post anymore :/ Bye .

The "Clubbing" created by ourself :)

Which is mainly like we closed the door and off the lights . Then on our torch lights moving or turning here and there to make the lights effect , then friends brought speaker and blast out our music . Thats how we did it , LOL . Maybe the picture doesnt looks like , but if you're at the scence with us you will know its really like the real clubbing :) Fun ttm .

2010-10-28T07:17:00.000-07:00

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step .

So ... I got promoted ! :D Teacher manage to pull my english up and got me promoted , i nearly retain :/
Called Adeline and told her the good news , finally can put my mind at ease :) Sent Emmeline back home and cab over to TeckWhye .
Suppose to meet Makiyo , end up she still sleeping like pig ! So meet Spencer and Cheefoong instead first , while waiting for Makiyo to get prepared . Walked over to block8 to meet her , chit chat and stuffs , went over to lan and watch her play Audition . So KE AI ! :D Cab home at 5plus , straight away went to sleep because i was so tired and i think its been quite long since i take afternoon nap :/

I think most of the parents dont keep their promises because my parents dont . Zz .

2010-10-27T08:25:00.001-07:00

Sweetest drug ♥

It was so nice to sleep at night ytd because its raining ! :D Woke up by Darren's spam calls :/ Get myself prepared and trained over to JP to meet Emmeline :) And my new shoes makes me cant even walk ! :/ Had fun over there because i finally broke that game level of Emmeline's phone , LOL . And Emmeline looks like cat , heheheh . Trained back to Yewtee at 7plus to meet MarcusTeo , talking nonsense and stuffs . Went back home at 9plus and i have to bear with the pain on my leg :( I just got to know that some of my classmates gotten a call from teacher for parents meeting ! Omfg , and the unluckiest thing is that my parents went overseas ! I called them and asked whether did teacher call them up or what , their only answer was dont know and dont know -.- So i've got to pray hard !! Hope i wont retain ! :((((

2010-10-26T21:41:00.001-07:00

I didnt show doesnt mean im strong , because all i can do was , keeping quiet aside and watching over you .

Woke up with tiring eyes , and i was almost late . Rushed to meet Emmeline at 4head , but last minute decided to give the school a skip . So went over to TeckWhye lan to find Darren & co. , me and Emmeline wanted to watch ghost movie , but starting of the movie we've alrd covered our face like dont know what and CheeFoong gave us a scare and my heart almost jumped out -.- And we were so tired that we pause the movie and ended up sleeping , LOLOL .

Bused over to CCK Polyclinic for MC , the queue too long -___- So forget it , went back to school with Emmeline for her trip meeting , wasting her time anyway , LOL . Bused over to JP , had alot of fun there especially when that crazy girl laughing non stop when i was playing some games . LOL . After work went to meet Yiyang , Cheefong and Spencer for supper with Emmeline , ok , suppose to be supper for me but ended up i didnt eat :/ And all of them scaring me all the way because its almost 12am -___- Reached home and bathe , wanted to msg for the whole night but i keep fall asleep :/

2010-10-22T05:15:00.000-07:00

虽然我知道你把我当代替品 , 但是我不介意 , 因为至少你对我说的谎言是美丽的 .

Guess i will be retain for sure this time . I failed everything , except chinese . The most fucked up thing is that i studied so hard for my Chemistry , and i failed by that fucking one mark .
Im so fucking angry that i cant even cry out , so i used sleep to avoid everything , again . For now , all i can do is just to hope that my overall will be slightly better and get me promoted . *Pray hard*

Sent Emmeline home today , cab over to Yewtee to meet MarcusTeo . Rant alot with him about my results , he sugested that if i retain , i can choose to take private O's . Just hope i wont , his friend came later and i went back . Lie down on my bed and thinking how should i explain to my parents , and slowly i fell asleep . The scariest dream i ever had when i fell asleep just now , i dreamt that i got back my report book and when i opened it , i saw all U grades and i burst out crying . So i ran out of school , continuously running non stop . And a few msgs and calls woke me up from my scary dream , :(

My sister lost her way at BukitGombak just now -.- She called me a few times , i saw her missed call but i didnt bother to call back because i thought she call me to ask me smth not important . LOL , but she called again while im sleeping , i didnt realise it was her so i pick up her call .
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She asked me : Eh , your school at where ah , we lost our way and we wanted to go to your school there . We're now at 500plus block
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And i was like , Huh ?! That was so far from my school -___- So i guide her how to go , ended up she dont understand what im talking about so no choice i've to call Darren , and woke him up from his sleep :x He was so kind enough to wake up and get prepare and bring my sister tgt with her friends to go over to their destination . Heheh . But i make him late for his dragon dance :/ So sorry .

So i've got to prepare for the worst ... Blame myself for being too lazy and stupid .

2010-10-18T08:05:00.001-07:00

Say you love me and i'll tell you "You're the one" ;)

Woke up at 9plus today , prepared and trained over to Batok to meet Emmeline to go to school for the Sec3 Batam trip's briefing . Emmeline is making a fool out of herself , LOLOL :/ Im quite exicted for the trip actually after listening to Emmeline's nonsense . Brief for less than one hour and we're dismissed , had our lunch and meet MarcusTeo . Last minute decision for movie , Eat Pray Love :) But i dont understand the story because my english sucks :x And Emmeline are making noises by stepping on those pop corn that we accidentally spilt almost 2/4 of it , and throwing pop corn at me . LOL . Anyway , since Emmeline said its nice , so maybe you all should catch it . Cab home after that , and Marcus is being irritating because he told me this :
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Marcus : Eh , your stuff missing !
Me : HUH ? What thing ?!
Marcus : Your phone lah ! Your phone drop inside the cab !!
*Cab drove away*
Me : HUH !?!?!?!?!? REALLY AH ?! *Show jiao bin and faster put my hand into pocket*
Marcus : HAHAHA . Your jiao bin very funny sia !
Me : -.- Shut up .

See it ? Zzz -.- Took 302 back because i've got not enough money for cab so we just get down at a bus stop . LOL , first time you know :( Im broke , i need new clothes .

2010-10-15T08:28:00.001-07:00

Knowing that you wont be back , but i'll still tell you , "i miss you" .

Tiring day today with my sister and AmandaWong , totally love it ;)
I woke up at 1plus today and realise i was late -__- , so get myself prepare and headed down to Cck , saw Xiangling and Chantel , Xiangling was like embarassing in the public :( Accompanied my sister to Panjang for her contact lens and back to Cck to meet AmandaWong :) Bought our tickets and watch The Child's Eye , not bad but somehow abit scary :/
Had our dinner @ PizzaHut , went down to Yewtee to meet MarcusTeo for awhile and headed back home :)

My sister's nose bleeding , and i was wondering , how long had it been ever since my nose bleed . LOL .

2010-10-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

Love is an act of endless forgiveness, a tender look which becomes a habit.

Finally exam is over ! But i dont feel happy or relieve at all , LOL . Mainly because i was damn worried about my result , just found out that my Chemistry MIGHT be getting 15 out of 50 , issn't that fucked up enough for me ? I studied so hard for this subject and i thought i've done well because to me the paper was easy and i can answer almost every question . And my English overall result get 52% , plus the English paper so hard , which means my EOY result will pull me down :( Im gonna retain .

I satisfied myself with MacSpicy meal for lunch today with Emmeline ! :) She's being so nonsensical enough to tell me even we bathing also very stress . LOL . Met up with MarcusTeo , sent Emmeline back and her stupid acts start again , telling stupid things to cab driver . LOL . Went over to Marcus's place because i dont feel like going home so early , played with his nephew and i swear he's damn fucking cute ! I think i like him , LOLOL . Went off at 4plus and i totally worn out after playing with Marcus's nephew even though its just 1hour plus , i know im weak but its been such a long time ever since i played with little kids . LOL .

Im gonna watch The Child's Eye tmr with my bloody sister and Amanda.W ! :) Heheh .

2010-10-12T02:08:00.000-07:00

If it wasn't you , i guess i wont learn how to be strong ever .
"Maybe to you im just an ordinary girl in your eyes , but to me , you're special . Because you stands a place in my heart , because you're perfect in everything ."

Left two more papers ..
I just got to know that my chances of retaining this year is very high :( Wtf . So , im prepare for the worst .
Chemistry and D&T papers today , i've got lots of careless mistakes for my Chemistry paper = die . I flunked my D&T paper , guess mostly of my classmates too . So i did last two question and i sleep for 1hour . I really cant imagine what if i retained , LOL :/ So overall only my chinese did well , the rest = failed .

Seriously , fml .

2010-10-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

'Cause im not that capable enough to catch your heart.

My blog is dead ._.
So ... my eye had been infected by maybe my contact lens or smth because it always irritate me when i wear it :/ And i think i really gave up on Maths alrd , i need to work very hard for my Chemistry to get promoted ..
Left 4 more papers and im free ! :D
I've been wasting my parents' money recently , i really bought lots of useless stuffs for myself , LOL . I need to get my hair dyed and trim so badly :( My hair colour drop off and make me look like some retarded .. Lol .
And i swear im like an idiot now -.- I dont know why the temparature nowadays is getting warmer and warmer , i have to on both my air con and fan when i sleep , but due to my sensitive nose , i off my air con and in less than one hour im sweating alrd . LOL :/
Will be meeting Emmeline earlier tmr to study Chemistry ! :)

Heheh , please dont look straight into my face , my eyes is reddddd like monster :(

2010-10-01T08:14:00.000-07:00

Memories is short yet beautiful .
"Im still gonna face the reality even if its cruel , because this shows that im strong enough to overcome all my obstacles."

Yea so , first paper is over today and thats Chinese . Overall still ok but i bet im gonna fail my English paper on Monday because my english totally cmi :/

Lots of things went through my mind recently , i can say that no matter how hard im trying to be sensible , in everybody's eyes im still the childish one . Maybe im not trying hard enough , one silly act can caused things that it shouldnt be happen in the first place . I tried so hard , so hard that sometimes i really feel like giving up . I can no longer take it anymore , and so finally my naughty tears rolled down my cheeks today . ♥9425462843696648

I think i pissed alot people off today because i dont know how to hail cab , LOLOLOL !!! And holiday is coming to find me straight after that damn EOY ! :)

2010-09-26T05:19:00.000-07:00

Now that you've left me behind alone , nobody gonna dry my tears for me when i cry , nobody gonna say "i love you" when im feeling down .
"What if i say im giving up soon , who will stay with me and support me when i fall ?"

Guess im having moodswing again , or maybe im really not in the mood ? I fucking hate this kind of feeling , especially when exam is coming , this year has really been a fucked up year for me . Sometimes i ought to leave some space and time for myself to think , think about my current life . But the problem is , everytime when im ready for it , i tends to fall asleep or people around distract me . I went through things one by one , and still i wont learnt my lesson . I still trust people easily , spilt out everything when i can keep it to myself because once a secret is being told to a person , it means being told to everybody .

When i finally learn how to keep everything to myself , yet i make another mistake again . I chance upon a person , im sorry but i really cant remember who . This person told me , "dont ever trust people easily , just because you trust people so easy and so you got backstabbed . Is a lesson for you to learn , cherish it" I will never ever forget this , but whenever i tried to , i failed .

You know , maybe you guys are really sick of my apologise because i kept doing wrong things to make people angry . So i asked myself to be strong and fight back , even if im at fault . I want to be a reasonable person too , i only apologise when i find myself really in wrong . Some of friends are matured enough to think , i like it when they are understanding . Because they always put themself in other people's shoe and think , then giving me advices . Exam is around the corner and i dont think i can be promote this year :(

What am i going do to ? ...
A big Thankyou to Xiangling and Anqi , for cheering me up :)

2010-09-25T09:30:00.000-07:00

When you said "You gonna be fine" , and i know i wont because all i want is you to hug me tightly and never let go .

Im a happy girl today :) Mainly because i got back my original phone :P
Exam starting on next friday :( Im a busy and today ! I went to queue for my phone collection number and realise its still long way to go . So i went to popular to get my stuffs , the queue also very long , LOL ! So i walked back to collect my phone and my number and being cut away -.- So i took another number again :/ Got my stuffs at popular and watson afterwards , Bugis next . And the stupidest thing is that they gave me the wrong phone -.- So the person came all the way from JurongPoint to Bugis just to exchange back the phone and i was like abit disappointed because the wrong phone i took was the new one . I regret for answering their call , LOLOLOLOL !!!! My eye hurts alot today , due to my new contact lens :/ Actually i've got nothing to post , just wanna update my rusty blog :)

2010-09-18T02:21:00.000-07:00

You're no longer needed in my life , fuck off .
"It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel. And when you think back of how blessful you are in the past of your beautiful memories, yet you cant find back the same feelings anymore. Nobody ever understand how you feel, all they do is to blame you for being selfish and naive."

I apologise for not posting my blog for so long , lots of things happened ever since school started . First day of school we was late due to the school gate closed so early and yet DM or whoever claimed that they closed at 8.26am when me and Emmeline reaching the school gate at 8.20am -.- We didnt want to be late for school , so we slacked outside and went in to school at 9am . What we did was walking in to school without taking late forms and just signed at the security guard post after that hide inside the toilet for 45mins because we were waiting for another lesson so we can sneak into the class :/ But after some time teacher came in and called us out , being lectured and got two days of detention while Emmeline only one day which is like , NOT FAIR ?! :( First day of detention was fun because we were chatting away with Suiyang and Ali plus there's only 5 people including the four of us but not the second day , it was so strict that i late for 7mins and i have to stay back for 30mins more -.- Father came to fetch me after my detention till 5pm .

I wasn't in the good mood for this whole week . Firstly was because of EOY , second was because i've got no one to talk to , Elaine and Adeline was busy working , no time for my nonsense plus i dont want them to get scolded by my parents .

Had been meeting MarcusTeo after school to accompany him drinking for some days , talking nonsense and stuffs . And , im broke . LOL .

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So now what ? I think its alrd been quite long for me ever since i cry for a person yea ? Maybe to others it shows a good sign , but not me . I've been keeping everything to myself lately , i hate that feeling when i have to put up a front infront of everybody . I miss Elaine's advices , Adeline's complains with me when i told them about my stuffs :(
Im so afraid of retaining in sec3 yet i still dont have the mood to study . I hate exams !!!!!

2010-09-08T09:45:00.000-07:00

只要你记得还有我的存在，我一定会永远陪着你 .

I wanted to post yesterday actually , but i was too angry till i forgot about it . On the other hand , Weixiang called me and i complained stuffs to him , so i asked Jonathan to called me too as he was online . I had a great chat on phone conference with both of them , they both making me laugh like some retard . Hehe , loves ! Use comp till 4plus and off it because it was too boring ! Called Boonyong and chat till 5plus , went to sleep and woke up at 7am to get myself prepared .

Cab over to Boonyong's place , waited for Emmeline and went for our SocialStudies remedial . I can say that its a waste for me , because i forgot to wear my contact lens to school so i cant see clearly , plus im having a bad stomachache . So i just sleep throughout the whole lesson , like wtf . Exam is around the corner and im still so relaxing ! Ohno , thats not the way girl ! :(

After lesson get myself changed and bused/trained to JP with Emmeline , met Marcus for lunch but i didnt eat because i wasn't hungry at all . But Marcus was such a joker , he's like a small kid i swear . Damn cute !

And btw , i forgot to announce that if anyone who happen to know about the relationship status of me and Marcus in Facebook , its fake . Me and Marcus just wanna fool some people and see whats their reaction and did it for fun . There's a passerby in my blog asking me whether me and Marcus was an item , my answer to you was can say so because it wasn't real :) Now the game is over , not fun anymore :/ So i've got to reveal the truth out yea .

Hmm , so after the lunch went up to shop while Marcus went off first . I get so bored at there because i dont know why , i've got no energy to jump around . Maybe because firstly , im tired . Secondly , im broke . LOL ! I can tell you that my wallet left 17dollars just now which has been bothering me for the whole day . But i managed to went through the whole day , LOL . The same old habit of mine came back again though i know that i've got not much money anymore . I took cab home , LOL ! Send Emmeline back home first then myself , and just because i wanna saved my money for cab , i didnt eat for my dinner so now im very very hungry ! Guess im gonna cooksome noodles for myself later on . Hehe , its been so long ever since i taste my own cooking noodles :P

Alright , such a wordy post , gotta end here if not you guys may get bored ;) And there's some pictures taken just now , because totally no customer ! Bored ttm :(

I was kneeling down at school's toilet sticking my fake eyelash and Emmeline snap it -.-

2010-09-05T04:27:00.000-07:00

:(

Im sick sick sick :(
And , my result was , terrible :/ Anyway , i've caught the movie , HauntedChangi , which was a stupid movie i swear . I thought it was scary or smth , end up i feel like sleeping . LOL . And after my movie my headache is making me so fucked up , so i took cab home . And straight away my fever came to visit me , so end up i didnt eat for two fucking whole days and now im very very hungry :( Its holiday now , and i've got nowhere to go :/ I shall go and get some sleep now , i feel so giddy now . Hehehe :(

2010-08-27T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hey , its over .

Ohnonononono , i failed my SS test :/ LOL . But , teacher said i might pass my Chemistry test , hehehe . I've been having my gastric nowadays :(
Anyway , i think i've got used to take a very long nap from afternoon to night , and yesterday because i was busy using laptop so i didnt get to sleep . So now im having a bad headache and gastric ._. But i slept alot in school , and my mother tongue teacher keep on turn one big round and shoot me and Emmeline because we're sleeping -.-
I've slept total 3hours in school today . LOLOL ! :D
So after school was about to cab to meet Weixiang , so i asked Emmeline to go along because i told her Weixiang gonna treat me eat PizzaHut :P Ran into Eunice and Gina at 4head bridge so i request sending them to their destination and the funniest thing is that we are snatching cab with Gavin , Weiyang , Xiangling and Zhangjian . LOL ! And we won !!! The thrilling feeling feel so good , LOL . Eunice got off first and the three of us got down at Lotone . Gina went off while me and Emmeline meet Weixiang , had pizza at PizzaHut and Weixiang was full of nonsense . Emmeline and him was making me laughing so hard at PizzaHut :/ Xiasuay leh . Walked around at Lotone and keep laughing like some retards . And Weixiang paid for every single thing today , including Emmeline's gummie from MiniToons , both of them was argueing about the gummie because Weixiang asked Emmeline took only 2 different kind gummies EACH and ended up he keep taking from Emmeline . Lol , accompany Emmeline waited for her bus and i saw Xiangling and Gavin . Took the same bus back with them because they are going to Edison's place ;)
I have to go FarEast tmr :( NOOOOOOOOOO !

P.S. , Weixiang's pig walk so sexyyyy and funyyyy ! LOL . Im very sure that if anyone of you saw him walking his pig walk instead of cat walk , sure laugh and drop off to the ground because im of one them .

2010-08-26T01:45:00.000-07:00

Maybe thats the way i want .

Its really been very very long ever since i update my blog :x Because of my parents , again :/
Anw , got back lots of test paper recently :( And im abit regret that i keep on playing non stop . The most stupid thing is that my History paper only got 2 question , and each question i wrote 2 sentences . And so , 4 marks was given . LOL . Which means that i've got all correct , if i wrote abit longer , i would have pass my test . LOL ! :( And there's Chemisry test today , i think i might failed because only 30mins was given and im busy giving Edison , Gavin and Suiyang answer so i didnt concentrate much :/ After school went to slack around , and CheeFoong that stupid dog is making me go crazy . LOL -.- Cab home and the cab driver went the wrong way , and stupid me was thinking too much like where is he bringing to , he want to kidnap me issit . LOL ! Okay , im very very very lame , who cares anyway ? :)
Will be meeting that FattyXiang tmr for his stupid retarded phone -.-
And , im very very very hungry now :/

2010-08-21T09:47:00.000-07:00

I didnt expect there's hatred towards me in you .
(Okay , i know i look fat in the photo above:/)

So many days didnt post alrd ._. Been going to school everyday , test and test :( I dont likeeeeee . Anyway , many things happened during this week :(
I told my mother everything and she cried :( Im not her good girl anymore ..
I had my chinese oral on the friday , Emmeline did smth shocking while i was sitting behind reading my passage waiting for my turn ._. (Read her blog)
And im the last one -.- After that i asked teacher whether did i pass my oral , she told me i've got highest in the passage reading despite me reading one word wrong , LOL . And the pronounciation i read was like a very big difference from the actual one -.- Zzz
And now some fuckers seriously pissing me off , guess i still heavent learnt my lesson . Wtf .

emmeline <:

2010-08-16T05:26:00.000-07:00

I'm updating Zhenru's blog on her behalf.
The picture above is taken by me, Zhenru's beloved (cute) emmeline :)

Anyways, she's kinda busy and has some stuff going on so I doubt she'll be coming online to do any updating tonight. So being sucha cute, friendly, helpful friend, I shall help her ;)

So ...

She woke up early this morning, headed down to 4head to meet up with Boonyong before I went down to join them. School was shitty, we had to copy notes and went through how to do SEQ to get us all ready for tomorrow's SS test. It sucks because we've yet to get our test papers back and there's gonna be another one tomorrow. Same goes for History, we had a retest because Mdm Zaharah wasn't satisfied with our results. We practically spent the whole day sleeping at school because the weather was awesomely cool and.. We lack of sleep.

We skipped the last two periods because Mr Koh was absent and we headed down to meet Boonyong instead. Met up with my friends for a while before taking the bus down to Jurong Point. Went to collect my pay and had lunch. Went back to Zhenru's parents' shop to slack with Adeline, Hui Er, Cindy and Ah Fong and had Haagen Daz ice cream (L) before heading down to West Mall to meet up with Zhenru's PBT monster - Marcus Teo.

Hanged around 'till six plus before cabbing home w Zhenru :)

I have no idea if this is how she wants me to post but I believe she'll be fine with it because it's written with lots of love and nonsense.

P/S : Zhenru says emmeline is a really cute Dragon and that she loves her a lot :P .

2010-08-15T00:54:00.000-07:00

PHOTO SPAM !

All these photos was taken at work :) I know its alot :/ But fun ! I spent 4hours to upload all the photos to my blogger because some photo missing ! -__- Anw , might be going to JP tmr with Emmeline to get her pay ! HappyHappy ! Im gonna get my pay soon too ! Heheh :) Photo is enough , stop here . Byebye ! :)

2010-08-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

The love that we used to have .

Fucking fucked up today , thanks to a customer -.-
I woke up late today , suppose to trained over to Emmeline's house to meet her and go to work tgt . But in the end i woke up at 10plus and get myself prepare fast , trained to JP . I had fun with Emmeline's camera , LOL . Though issin't a good day for me , but Emmeline , Eunice , Peiling and Cindy brighten my day :) And we ran into a customer thats seriously "kiam pa" and "guailan" ttm . Knock off at 9pm , trained home tgt .

Im sorry for every words i've said that hurts you , because i dont want to hide anything from you .

2010-08-09T11:36:00.000-07:00

What if i asked , will you come back to me ?

Why the hell am i feeling this way ?

Im so tired today :( Woke up at 10plus to prepare myself for work , but im slacking over there :/ Finally knock off at 7plus because im meeting my beloved Emmeline , trained to JurongPoint to wait for her to end her work , i kissed 3 of my mother's sales girls at my shop just now and Emmeline was jealous . LOL , so i offered to give her a kiss but she dont want , step shy :P Anw , my aunty let her end work earlier than usual because of me *insert jiaobin* , trained to Gombak to meet Boonyong and Yiyang , slacked and Emmeline went off first , walked back to 4head to hail for cab and cab home :) I hate Yiyang for scaring me all the way while we walking back from 3head to 4head because GhostFestival is getting nearer and nearer in about 30mins just now :( Lucky i request to cab home at 11.35pm :x And i asked the cab driver to driver faster so i reached home at 11.50pm . Lucky the clock heavent strike 12am yet :/ LOL . And now its 2.59am , i still cant get to sleep -.- Anw , will be meeting my beloved dragon tmr in the morning and i can slack and play around at my shop :x
Guess im typing too much , i shall try to get some rest now :) Anw , here's the conversation between me and the cab uncle :x

Me : Uncle , can drive faster ? Im in rush .
Uncle : So late alrd rush to where ?
Me : No lah , cause going 12am mah , i scared , i want reach home before 12am .
Uncle : Oh , then you still dare to stay outside till so late ?
Me : Huh , cause before that i dont know tmr is GhostFestival till my friend tell me .
Uncle : Oh , you how old ?
Me : Er , 16 this year .
Uncle : Huh , i thought you 14 leh .
Me : *Sian-ed face* No choice , i short .
Uncle : Drink more milk .
Me : ... ok .

-- Continue with all his nonsense conversation about my school till i reach home :/ --

2010-08-07T08:55:00.000-07:00

It hurts even more if you pretend it doesnt .

7thAugust2010 , i swear this date is a fucking shyt .

I trained over to JP to meet Emmeline , Eunice.K and HuiEr , and in the end it turn out to be so fucked up . Trained to Orchard , though it wasnt that boring because got iPhone , but im still not happy . I seriously wanna fuck this date , which fucking spoilt my happy mood in the morning . Boonyong came over to fetch me from FarEast , came back and another incident happen again -.- So we get down at Batok , Boonyong accompanied me wait for another cab , i cab to meet Weixiang , and things happen . LOL , get down the cab and waited for Weixiang to cab over to fetch me , and after he get down , again , same thing happen . Like wtf seriously , i fucking hate it .

And now , my parents fucking irritating , first thing in the morning which spoilt my mood is because of my mother , now both of them trying to make me feel like killing them . Alright , gtg to remove my make up and stuffs . Bye .

I met Weixiang because he asked me whether i want cheese cake anot . LOL , "sweet" right ? *Because today was his practical test , so he bake this and gave it to me -.-* But anw , thankyou XiangXiang ♥ :)

2010-08-06T08:05:00.000-07:00

Nothing gonna change my love for you

Hehe , im back to post my bloggggyyy .
Emmeline's sick and im so bored :(
So i take over her and went to JP today , but i had fun with TingLei , Eunice.K , HuiEr and Cindy :D Cindy helped me polished my nails but i kept "destroy" it :x Now 3 of my nails is unpolished . LOLOL :x Being running and playing around :x
Had to go to FarEast for work myself tmr -.- Damn spoilt mood . Alright , gtg for my fb alrd :)

Emmeline x3 , LOL :)

2010-08-04T07:38:00.000-07:00

OneZeroZeroFive ♥

Im back to post ;) Im a happy girl today :D But im very very very tired :( I almost fall asleep while sitting at the hall for PE lesson , went back to class after that and sleep for the whole DnT period till recess ._. Had english test , i think i will fail it because i anyhow write :( After school Emmeline went home straight because she have to work while me meeting Boonyong :/ And i cab home around 3plus , reached home and my father cooked noodles for me :) Went to have a nap and i was so tired that i slept from 4.30pm to 9pm :/ And my mother came in the room and shouted "Girl ah , your Burberry come back alrd !" And then i jumped up upon hearing her say that , LOLOLOL ! Anw , i finally upload the picture of xiaokimyee :D But my form teacher free it alrd :/

My beloved Burberry wallet :P

Emmeline's xiaokimyee

2010-08-01T06:58:00.000-07:00

What the fuck am i thinking ?! :(

Had my tuition early in the morning , totally fucked up by tuition teacher -.-
Went out to meet Emmeline after that , went up to her house to meet her and Gavin'N first . Walked to meet Edison'W and C'Jiawei , and Waichong , Zhangjian came after that :) Had fun with them , they were fishing and catching lobster . They named the big lobster as xiaokimyee and the small one as KenTeoJian . LOL . I get abit bored and started to sit beside the small drain :/ And Edison'W , Gavin'N , Emmeline'Y , C'Jiawei and Zhangjian come over to sit also . And they start to play -.- Throwing their slippers into the drain , and the water was like moving very fast :/ . So they threw slippers inside and use the net to catch it , LOL . Gavin'N and Edison'W went down to the small drain to play -.- But they said was slippery :/ I went down to try awhile because Gavin'N said its fun , standing there as the water was like very cooling :x Climbed up and Emmeline's slipper im wearing drop off :x I was like omg because water move so fast , but lucky Gavin'N use his net to help me "catch" it back :P After playing with their slippers , they start to put KenTeoJian(lobster) into the drain and wanted to try catching it , but failed :/ So we put another fish they caught inside , also failed . Around 5plus walk over to Emmeline's house to put all the fishing stuffs and her little xiaokimyee , walked over to Gombak , Zhangjian and C'Jiawei went off first :) Left Emmeline , Gavin'N , Edison'W and Waichong , had mac for our dinner :) Being sucha retard with Edison guessing Emmeline's phone pattern to unlock her phone , but in the end failed :/ After mac Gavin'N went off , followed by Edison'W and Waichong . Walked back to Emmeline's house to study :) Cab home around 8plus , currently chatting with Marcus'T on msn , he kept commenting on my msn dp -.- So i changed another one , and i just merely asking him whether my new dp cute anot , and he said yes . LOLOL , first time ! :/ Normally he will answer a big NO to me -.- Alright , sucha long post , shall end with some photos i took ealier on :)

P.S, i forgot to take picture of xiaokimyee :/

2010-07-31T09:52:00.000-07:00

Without you , im nothing .

Same thing today . Went to JP first with parents , waited for Emmeline because of my fried rice :P But she disappointed me :( Because i dont like carrot , sweet corn and pea in my fried rice :( No choice had to eat some . Father drove me to Bugis after that , all i did was using fb and chatting away with Adeline'O & Elaine'T :)
Saw Jiajun at Bugis :) Boonyong and Yiyang came to fetch me , cab back to Yewtee to meet Marcus . Slacked and chat awhile , and Boonyong and Yiyang walked me home ;) Gtg sleep now , mother nagging :(

2010-07-29T04:29:00.000-07:00

Absence makes the heart grow fonder .

Finally i can upload my photos :)
School as per normal , nothing much though . Just that lots of test coming up :/ MYE is like getting nearer and nearer ? :( School life was interesting nowadays because our class was in trend of tattoo -__- Gavin drew an ugly tatto on my hand today . LOL . Im hungry ! :( Im still coughing , though my throat is alright now . The feeling of sore throat seriously sucks ttm , i even woke up in the middle of the night to complain to my mother and sweat like some pigs . Alright , gtg for my revision for test tmr :/

"Tattoos"

2010-07-27T03:11:00.000-07:00

Sick Sick Sick ! :(

Didnt went to school today :( Cause im sick , sigh ! Had a terrible sore throat when i woke up this morning . I hate sore throat very very much ! :@ Heh , Weixiang told me he gonna give me eat the cheese cake he bake ! :P Pictures will be update soon cause im currently using another laptop :)

26/07/2010

School like normal . Suiyang and Xiangling helped me draw tattoo again , i've got the picture but will update next time . After school went to meet MarcusTeo and Boonyong with Emmeline , but Weixiang , Darren , Spencer , Tengwei , KokHwee was there too :) Went over to eat and continue to slack , cab home after that . Had fun with them but my throat irritates me :/ The most funny thing is that Weixiang asked me to accompany him to draw money , but he dont know how to check his account balance ! LOLOL !

2010-07-23T02:21:00.000-07:00

我只想静静的看着你，只要你开心就好 .

School was fine , just that im very tired :/ Im trying to get some sleep on Maths or Chinese lesson , but i failed to -.- LOL . Recess went down to smuggle food up to class again :x English lesson was a joke , Zhangjian start to help Edison draw "tattoo" then Gavin also start to helped me and Emmeline draw "tattoo" on our hand , but very ugly because Gavin anyhow draw ! -.- Suiyang wanted to help me draw nicely , but teacher shouted at him and my "tattoo" was like half way done only :( After school slacked awhile and Emmeline went back because she needs to pack her things and go Malaysia :( Cab home at 1plus :) MarcusTeo very zek ark , he told Emmeline that he can bake cake for her but dont give me -.- Zzz .

Emmeline , faster come back leh :( I want fried rice , LOLOLOL .

Everything is like so normal for me :( Though i gain a few friends but i lost one that i can trust . Im a happy girl in school but not outside school , i thought everything will be fine , yet it didnt turn out to be the way i want . I dont get it , you just dont know how i felt . I dont wanna repeat the same thing over and over again , im not your toy that you can throw and pick it up as and when you like . But , i'll respect your decision .

And you , not all girls are bad right . Zzz , and now you're pushing all the blames on me -.- Like wtf ? Its not totally my fault right ? I just follow my heart , love cant be force lah please . You guys really dont understand how i felt , kept thinking what im trying to do , why i always tend to hurt people . So kio me in msn very fun issit ? Then go ahead with all your childish act , i dont care anymore . Im tired with all the quarrelings .

Fucktards :)

Me love 3ivory :D

2010-07-22T06:09:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday My Beloved Dragon :)
May all your wishes come true ok ! Loves ^^

Okay , everything went smoothly today till now -.- Im fucked up again . Woke up early , bused over to meet Marcus and get the cake from him , slacked awhile and then cab to school . Meet Emmeline and went to school , ate the cake at recess , everybody said nice :D And when they found out the cake was made by MarcusTeo , everybody was like shocked and quite impressed i guess ? Because i also cant believe he can made it so nice except for like , the cake is sink -.- LOL . Maths lesson was like damn fun , the whole group of us that sit behind at the back of class sang birthday song for Emmeline that our maths teacher got so fed up . HAHA . After school met Boonyong and Yiyang , slacked and went for lunch . Cab home after that , now my parents is scolding me like wtf ? -.- And you , i know you did it on purpose but , i dont give a damn . So say whatever you like -.- Bye .

2010-07-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

Sakae Sushi

Picture shall do all the talkings , because im lazy to post alrd after uploading those pictures -.- but i really had fun today .

2010-07-20T05:12:00.000-07:00

I dont care whether im still important to you , because no matter what you'll always be in my heart .

Im cold :( And im having flu now , sigh :( I think im being influence by Edison and JoJo(Jocelyn) , they both sad ! Cheer up :) Today is not a good day for me , i set my alarm at 2am plus to wake up to check my phone , but i didnt even hear anything , when i woke up this morning and i saw that my clock its alrd 6am plus -.- And i was like very angry , blaming my maid why didnt she wake me up because whenever i told her to wake me up at 5.30am , she will wake me up at 5am -.- And now its 6plus she dont even bother . So i rushed to bathe and etc. , was waiting for cab and this auntie snatch cab with me -.- Make me so fucked up so i called cab , meet up with Emmeline and walk to school . I was eating the fried rice Emmeline cooked for me in class at SS lesson , very nice ! Lol , :/ And then i brought the water babies that Emmeline asked me to , we played it in class :x And this maths teacher of mine thought that it was sweet and asked us not to eat sweet in class -.- After school went to slack and cab home .

My dearest boyf is like so xdd , he played the FishVille game in fb and he influenced me -.- I kept pestering him to help me play and win my brother . LOL . And and and ! his fucking FAKE fishes are more important than me !!!! :@ Because after school i met up with him and he "abandon" me and Emmeline under his block then went up to his house to feed his FAKE fishes -.-

The water babies i brought to school and let my classmates play . This is Emmeline's beloved water babies that she dont even let people touch it . LOL !

2010-07-16T00:03:00.000-07:00

Everybody's hurt somebody before , everybody's been wound by somebody before .
(Kop from Jonathan.Z , because he said what if later people read my blog alrd then go fb and saw my title has the same post as him , LOL.)

Imma happy girl , for today only . And my reason is because my hair "listened" to me today . LOLOLOL , okay whatever . Im here to update because my sister is very annoying , she want me to post our photo on blog because of some lame reason -.- School as per normal , but i feel so tired and sleep in Maths lesson , and this very irritating teacher keep on waking me and Emmeline up to copy the answer -.- And after that was English , im laughing like so hard because of Emmeline . She's being bullied like mad , LOL . After school met Desheng , Cheefoong and Spencer . KokHwee came after that , and the way Desheng sat on KokHwee's bike damn funny . LOL . Slacked awhile and i cab home , currently talking to Jonathan on msn :)

Seriously , i dont understand why -.-