" I learned that it is the weak who are cruel , and that gentleness is to be expected only from the strong . Show me someone who has done something worthwhile, and I'll show you someone who has overcome adversity. "

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♥ Thursday, December 08, 2011

I wanna tell you how much i need you back in my life, im sorry for getting used to your presence that now i feel weird without you.

I just edited my blog heading above, hehehe and i feel satisfied although it cant be properly view using iPhone :( Anw, i had my steamboat ytd with Jovin and Adeline! Hehehe, nomnomnom! Went to Adeline's grandma place for awhile because both of them wanna play with Adeline's baby cousin, cute! And i went over to vivo to meet Gina at night, but i was freaking late for one hour /: Accompnied her for dinner and went home, i know its lame lah, LOL.

After i talked to Jovin, Adeline and Elaine. I realized how dumb i really was, to keep rely on others than to be independent. Yes, because im afraid to be alone.
I admit, im weak, i hate being alone because i feel inferior and empty. Whenever im alone on the train or bus, i will be fucking sensitive when other teenagers look at me because i feel imperfect, especially after they look and turn back to whisper. I SWEAR I HATE IT.
This is also why my friends treat me like small girl, even though some are younger than me.


Now im without him, there's nobody for me to rant to. He's the one who asked me to learn how to be strong, actually, i should have known that he will be gone one day. Just that i didnt expect it will be so fast..

And after having a talk with my friend, i find that actually no one is giving a fuck to me. Serious. So now, i should stop caring so much and led my own life. If you wanna step out of my life, go ahead, i wont stop any one of you because for now, i expect that everyone will leave me one day. Its just a matter of how long and short period of time you're staying. Well, friends, one day if you guys ask why i dont give a damn anymore, you should know why and you're most welcome to leave since most of you just disappear out of a sudden. Takecare, Xx.


I was trying out with my lappy webcam before i go out ytd, hehehe.