♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
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♥ Thursday, June 23, 2011
It's time for Goodbye , isn't ?
Cried so hard last night , like wtf am i doing ? I thought i aren't suppose to ? Well , sucha weakling . Or maybe i should really give up and just forget it ? Let nature take its course is the best right ?
So long ever since i dedicate people in my blog , and this time i think is the best one i ever did because its the first time i dedicate post for people tgt with photos . Spent 2 hours dedicating using my phone last night , and thought everythng would turn out well but no , im wrong . Maybe except for some ? Sigh .
Jocelyn over at my place again , im like so super suaku dont know how to edit photo and she helped me . HAHA . And now Amanda Naomi came over , hehe , likea long never see her alrd . She called me at 5am plus this morning , she hung up after chatting awhile cause i told her raining talk on phone if lighting strike will deaf . LOL . Okay , update just to make my blog look alive . Shall let my brother use the comp now and wait for tuition teacher to arrive . ^^ Bye .
♥ Wednesday, June 22, 2011
International Love .
Been asked to update my blog by JocelynLim , she's currently over at my place and im helping her to jailbreak her phone .
Ok one hour later , jailbreak success , LOL . Having tuition later , sucks ttm , so boring . Heading down to Yewtee Point later to have dinner with Jocelyn at LJS ;)
------Came back home after "tuition"-------
Supposed to have tuition but i skipped it , totally no mood for tuition :/ So slacked around at "YP Corner" to kill time with JocelynLim , LOL . Reached home and watched my C.L.I.F , hehe . And i guess i wont be sleeping tonight again , in case you text me , though i know its abit out of qns but i will still wait .
I seriously broke likea dog , dont even have 1dollar in my wallet now , wtf . First time , LOL . And Jocelyn have been treating me lunch or any other food , guilty max and yet i dont even have the money to treat or pay her back . I feel like jailbreaking my phone too , Installous totally cant work , but i scared if jailbreak i need to download everything again which takes up a few hours . Maybe i shall ask my tuition teacher tmr again . Okay , school starting soon , so this post gonna be long long post for a few people who i really feel grateful towards them during this one month holiday , they have been cheering me up and everything . Hehe .
Hi Jiaqian , school starting soon and i guess you will receive my msg at least once a week alrd . Though sometimes i get sensitive or even make you feel irritated , but you will never complain but continue to love me . You will make me laugh when im feeling down , buy things for me to eat and share with me . You will tell me lots of things about your "xiasuay" stuffs , scold me when i did smth wrong . I dont know why but somehow me and all the AAAS-C are drifting , maybe because i dont really active in fb anymore , i hardly go down to workplace and find you all . During those time when i really feel like ending my life , AAAS-C was the one who make me continue to stay strong . Fate or destiny , im really glad to have this bunch of great sisters with me .♥
Hi Baoyue , i remember we arent that close in the past , but thanks to Elaine , i joined you all and became closer . I usually dont rant my stuffs to you , but slowly , i start to look for you and tell my grandmother stories . You are also another sister that will scold me whenever i did smth wrong , teach me things about relationship . So slowly i would tell you everything about me and some people , you dont want me to get into ITE and keep nag and asked me to study hard because ITE life was hard . Also , you will always bbe my listening ear and let me complain , and advice me after that . I know last time i keep pester you all to bring me go club because i get influenced , never once you agree because you told me club was a complicating place and i could only go when i reach 18 . Same thing , a great sister that would stay by my side whenever i need you . ♥
Hi Geoklan , you're getting married soon , take good care of the little one in your stomach . I know recently you cant control your temper due to prenancy , i know its tough , so i dont dare to look for you when im sad . But i want to let you know that you're still in my heart no matter what , you always buy things for me when you go overseas with mummy , scold me when i did smth wrong or make papa mummy angry . You teach me everything with patience , you used to tell me "If you dare to smoke again , please dont ever talk to me anymore , thats it." I feel the love from you , at that moment i felt so bless , and of course even till now , i do . Among all the sisters , you're the one that i always makes you angry with all my wrong doings , yes you do lecture me , but you still love me like before . Because of you , i became part of AAAS-C . ♥
Hi Peiling , i love your "xinsan ren" . I would go to you sometimes when mummy scold me or when i feel helpless , you told me to study hard and teach me whats right and wrong . You can make all of us laugh till we get stomachache , this is the first time im writting this to you , because when my life was in a messed , you "counsel" me and make me feel better . Approaching you was never wrong , i know no matter what you will take up my rantings and advice me . Although we're same age but among you all i always seems like im the youngest because i never experience lots of things like you guys do . I never regret knowing you at all because you was one of the best person that appear in my life , in fact the whole of AAAS-C . ♥
Hi Yiling , you're the first sister that fetch me from school among the others , and also the first one to do this other than my parents . We became closer because of Elaine and others too , and also we know the same person(you know who) , so i always go to you and complain to you about that particular person . You treat me like your younger sister too , advice me and asked me not to give a damn . I know you have your own problems to worried too but yet when I go to you , you'll never show me attitude . I love it when you fetch me from school because I feel like I really do have a real blood sister , I keep pester other sisters to do the same thing but they are too busy because of work , I wanted to do this because I wanna try the feeling of being fetched by any one of my sisters . Make me feel so blessed ! You're one of the best sister I ever had . ♥
Hi WeiNan , you're one of a great friend I ever had , you're just like my big brother . Although we just knew each other for the short 3 months , but we became close friend that always tell each other our problems . You once told me you don't feel my importance in your heart , though I don't know now did you feel it but I really did tried my best to be a good friend of yours . I have to admit that sometimes we quarreled , I hate to give in so easily , because you make me feel like I'm not important to you at all or it's just part of my wishful thinking . I know maybe now I'm such a pest to you , I always make you feel irritated and annoyed , but please don't get angry when you see this because I'm just saying out my thoughts . You know I'm a paranoid person , I tends to think alot . I hate it everytime when we quarrel , though I showed attitude or act like nothing happen , but deep down my heart it really hurts . To be honest , most of the time when we quarrel I cried , I'm serious . Sometimes I really feel like giving up but whenever I think of how you cheer me up , make me laugh and your concern , I couldn't bear to . I may sound like I'm interested in you , but no , it's because you play a big part in my life . I swear that I never regret knowing you at all , believe it or not , I'll still be here if you need someone to kp to . ♥
Hi Liming , thanks for being there when I'm all alone . You are my great listening ear and always cheer me up with your nonsense when I'm down . Though you're younger than me , but you make me feel like I'm the younger one instead , I don't know why but I just feel this way . You know the whole incident of mine , and yet you didn't detest me but being the one who stay by my side to accompany me . Maybe you're tired of me complaining the same thing over and over again , but you still gave me advices patiently . Perhaps to you I may not be a good friend , but if you wanna rant your stuffs , I'll be there for you like how you did . And also , last long with your boy . ♥
Hi Lixian , I know we have some misunderstanding previously , but now we both find it childish . I know I shouldn't doubt you when you start talking to me and become close with me , I'm sorry . Like I told you before , you are a great friend , you treat me lots of food when you know I'm left with no money . You know I can't accompany you to go for shopping spree but you didn't get angry , and in fact , you keep coming over to my place and accompany me . You're thoughtful , just like today , you told me you're hungry and wanna go down to buy some tibits , I asked you to go down alone , and end up you came back with a cup noodles and a cup of coke , I feel guilty upon seeing you standing outside my house tgt with the food you bought for me . You always accompany me for Tomyam Noodles and took initiative to buy me drinks , I know I'm not a good friend of yours because till now , I haven't even buy you a single stuff . I promise when school reopen and I get allowance , I will treat you . And also , thanks for being so understanding . ♥
Hi Cheeming , thanks for taking the initiative to text me sometimes , and also concern me when you know I'm not feeling good . At times , I really got to take my hat off you , I know you don't really express out your feelings and keep everything to yourself . I'm wondering how did you even do that , don't you feel tired at all ? You're the first person that have the personality of being a happy-go-lucky person , I wish I could be like you , don't give a damn to my surroundings and live in my own world , I tried but I cant , I'm way too emotional . I got to admit that sometimes I hate your replies because all so short , make me have to think of how to reply your text . But at least I managed to do that , you don't get angry easily when I keep on disturbing you , you're a fun loving person . Sometimes when I'm reading your text I would laugh , though your replies are short . Well , I don't know you still remember that we promise we will club tgt when we reach 18 , hope you still do . I know I'm not in the right position to tell you this , but , try to cut down on cigarettes when you hasn't really got addicted . I know to you , I don't stand a place in your heart and you only regard me as a friend , but to me , you're a good friend , and also a good listening ear . I'm happy that I can get to know you , will meet up soon when I have time and if you want to ok . ♥
♥ Monday, June 20, 2011
Mr Saxobeat .
Sorry for not updating for a long time , didnt have time to and im lazy , heh .
My hair is so irritating that i've cut short , i look likea dog now :( Dont even dare to go out , LOL . I've been stuck at home for quite afew days and quarreled with Mom , spoil my mood ttm .
School starting in 6 days time , omfg . Now i feel so disgusted , seeing people posting about school gonna start in fb totally ruin my mood , and for that moment i really feel like deleting them , no offence though , LOL . And i bet the day before school start my whole fb home page will be about school school school , eww .
My body clock was screwed , i can stayed up for the whole night till 6-7plus in the morning . Been having Tomyam noodles with JocelynLim at Yewtee Point Koufu , nomnomnom ! Hehehe . And she's coming to my place again tmr ! I suddenly miss Naomi alot :( Ohnoooo , i miss the time when she stay overnight at my place and we had lots of nonsense , heh .
And there's smth i would like to say to DovenTang , my beloved brother that stands a special place in my heart :
Boy , thanks for being there for me when i need you . I know recently we have a big tiff that we didn't contact for few days , i know you were angry and i refuse to give in and take initiative because i insist that you were the one at fault first . But you started a conver with me and everything's over , so happy when your name appear on my phone when my phone light up . I dont mind letting you vent your anger on me when you're in a foul mood , i know you dont mean it . You know me well , i know you well , you always love to disturb me with your nonsense . Never failed to make me laugh , you always want the best for me , asked me to study and if i dont you not gonna talk to me . You want me to have proper meal and if i skip any meals you gonna be mad at me and forced to buy food , you want me to drink lots of water because i fell sick on my cousin's wedding and you were worried . Though its quite some time ago but you still want me to take good care of my health , you promised to fetch me or come to meet me once you got your bike , you told me how lousy your bike was compared to your friends , but you know i dont mind . You tried all sorts of way to make me fed up by insulting me on the phone , but ended up i keep laughing and you would tell me "I love talking to you , because no matter how i try to insult you you'll still laugh . And , why wont you get angry ?" My answer to you was "Because i know you will never meant it when you said that , i know you still care." And again you tried to make me angry by saying "When did you become so thick skinned ? I get bored of you alrd , i wanna find another girl to replace you alrd . Whatever i say you'll laugh , no fun ." And i would start to coquetry , you will imitate me . The sweetest thing you ever told me was "Girl , remember no matter what happen i will always stand infront and behind of you . Because im infront to shield the pain for you when people tried to hurt you , and behind to support you when you fall . People say they will stay by your side , but end up when things happen they're the one who leave , all geisiao one ." Upon receiving this text , my heart melts :') There's many more things you said to me , too many to mention . Thanks for everything boy , ♥ ♥ ♥
♥ Tuesday, June 07, 2011
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JocelynLim is currently at my place , hehehe . And i swear she's fucking retard and lame ! Now my phone's installous cant work again , fml :(
Didnt sleep for the whole night ytd until this morning 8plus and went to bed . JocelynLim spam call me till she couldn't take it anymore and she went to add my sister on fb to wake me up :x Realise she spammed me 27 calls :/
Amanda Naomi went home at 1pm plus while im soundly asleep and now she's coming again , she love my house too much ^^ Just like JocelynLim , keep wanna come to play with my siblingsssss . Guess i wont be sleeping tonight again , fb and twitter for the whole night . Heh , im a happy girl today again ^^
And i got a feel to pplay back Audition so i went to patched the patcher of AuditionSEA , too long didnt play my skill rusty like dont know what alrd :( Plus laptop too lag cant play properly . Jocelyn keep laughing at how i got owned there ! :(
From now onwards , i swear i wont cry for any guys anymore .
♥ Monday, June 06, 2011
Give me everything tonight .
Hi peopleeeeee , RachelChee asked me to update my blog so here i am ! Mood was good today ! ^^
Had BBQ session on last Friday at West Coast Park with sisters and some guys , though mood was abit down but yes im quite happy because got hotdog to eat , heh . Parents came and fetch me afterwards , homed and sleep likea pig till next morning and head out with parents for the past two days .
Know what , 3 more weeks and school gonna reopen alrd , fast or what ?! I've been waiting for this one month holiday so eagerly and now gonna end soon . Hate it when holiday pass so fast while just one day in school the time passes like snail . Argh .
Anw , Elaine`sister's birthday is coming in just two more days ! ^^ Hehehe , love her maxmax .
Amanda Naomi is currently at my place and she's staying over tonight , cool ! And JocelynLim will be coming over to my place and play with me , hehehe .
My sister and Amanda are trying to psycho me to create twitter(Dont laugh , i know i doesn't have twitter likea noob.) ! Currently downloading installous into my phone , and i fucking dont understand why keep having IPA error , make me angry ttm ! -.-
Okay i shall stop here and continue with my phone , bye peeps !