" I learned that it is the weak who are cruel , and that gentleness is to be expected only from the strong . Show me someone who has done something worthwhile, and I'll show you someone who has overcome adversity. "

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♥ Sunday, September 26, 2010

Now that you've left me behind alone , nobody gonna dry my tears for me when i cry , nobody gonna say "i love you" when im feeling down .
"What if i say im giving up soon , who will stay with me and support me when i fall ?"

Guess im having moodswing again , or maybe im really not in the mood ? I fucking hate this kind of feeling , especially when exam is coming , this year has really been a fucked up year for me . Sometimes i ought to leave some space and time for myself to think , think about my current life . But the problem is , everytime when im ready for it , i tends to fall asleep or people around distract me . I went through things one by one , and still i wont learnt my lesson . I still trust people easily , spilt out everything when i can keep it to myself because once a secret is being told to a person , it means being told to everybody .

When i finally learn how to keep everything to myself , yet i make another mistake again . I chance upon a person , im sorry but i really cant remember who . This person told me , "dont ever trust people easily , just because you trust people so easy and so you got backstabbed . Is a lesson for you to learn , cherish it" I will never ever forget this , but whenever i tried to , i failed .

You know , maybe you guys are really sick of my apologise because i kept doing wrong things to make people angry . So i asked myself to be strong and fight back , even if im at fault . I want to be a reasonable person too , i only apologise when i find myself really in wrong . Some of friends are matured enough to think , i like it when they are understanding . Because they always put themself in other people's shoe and think , then giving me advices . Exam is around the corner and i dont think i can be promote this year :(

What am i going do to ? ...
A big Thankyou to Xiangling and Anqi , for cheering me up :)

♥ Saturday, September 25, 2010

When you said "You gonna be fine" , and i know i wont because all i want is you to hug me tightly and never let go .

Im a happy girl today :) Mainly because i got back my original phone :P
Exam starting on next friday :( Im a busy and today ! I went to queue for my phone collection number and realise its still long way to go . So i went to popular to get my stuffs , the queue also very long , LOL ! So i walked back to collect my phone and my number and being cut away -.- So i took another number again :/ Got my stuffs at popular and watson afterwards , Bugis next . And the stupidest thing is that they gave me the wrong phone -.- So the person came all the way from JurongPoint to Bugis just to exchange back the phone and i was like abit disappointed because the wrong phone i took was the new one . I regret for answering their call , LOLOLOLOL !!!! My eye hurts alot today , due to my new contact lens :/ Actually i've got nothing to post , just wanna update my rusty blog :)

♥ Saturday, September 18, 2010

You're no longer needed in my life , fuck off .
"It hurts to love someone and not to be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel. And when you think back of how blessful you are in the past of your beautiful memories, yet you cant find back the same feelings anymore. Nobody ever understand how you feel, all they do is to blame you for being selfish and naive."

I apologise for not posting my blog for so long , lots of things happened ever since school started . First day of school we was late due to the school gate closed so early and yet DM or whoever claimed that they closed at 8.26am when me and Emmeline reaching the school gate at 8.20am -.- We didnt want to be late for school , so we slacked outside and went in to school at 9am . What we did was walking in to school without taking late forms and just signed at the security guard post after that hide inside the toilet for 45mins because we were waiting for another lesson so we can sneak into the class :/ But after some time teacher came in and called us out , being lectured and got two days of detention while Emmeline only one day which is like , NOT FAIR ?! :( First day of detention was fun because we were chatting away with Suiyang and Ali plus there's only 5 people including the four of us but not the second day , it was so strict that i late for 7mins and i have to stay back for 30mins more -.- Father came to fetch me after my detention till 5pm .

I wasn't in the good mood for this whole week . Firstly was because of EOY , second was because i've got no one to talk to , Elaine and Adeline was busy working , no time for my nonsense plus i dont want them to get scolded by my parents .

Had been meeting MarcusTeo after school to accompany him drinking for some days , talking nonsense and stuffs . And , im broke . LOL .

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So now what ? I think its alrd been quite long for me ever since i cry for a person yea ? Maybe to others it shows a good sign , but not me . I've been keeping everything to myself lately , i hate that feeling when i have to put up a front infront of everybody . I miss Elaine's advices , Adeline's complains with me when i told them about my stuffs :(
Im so afraid of retaining in sec3 yet i still dont have the mood to study . I hate exams !!!!!

♥ Wednesday, September 08, 2010

只要你记得还有我的存在，我一定会永远陪着你 .

I wanted to post yesterday actually , but i was too angry till i forgot about it . On the other hand , Weixiang called me and i complained stuffs to him , so i asked Jonathan to called me too as he was online . I had a great chat on phone conference with both of them , they both making me laugh like some retard . Hehe , loves ! Use comp till 4plus and off it because it was too boring ! Called Boonyong and chat till 5plus , went to sleep and woke up at 7am to get myself prepared .

Cab over to Boonyong's place , waited for Emmeline and went for our SocialStudies remedial . I can say that its a waste for me , because i forgot to wear my contact lens to school so i cant see clearly , plus im having a bad stomachache . So i just sleep throughout the whole lesson , like wtf . Exam is around the corner and im still so relaxing ! Ohno , thats not the way girl ! :(

After lesson get myself changed and bused/trained to JP with Emmeline , met Marcus for lunch but i didnt eat because i wasn't hungry at all . But Marcus was such a joker , he's like a small kid i swear . Damn cute !

And btw , i forgot to announce that if anyone who happen to know about the relationship status of me and Marcus in Facebook , its fake . Me and Marcus just wanna fool some people and see whats their reaction and did it for fun . There's a passerby in my blog asking me whether me and Marcus was an item , my answer to you was can say so because it wasn't real :) Now the game is over , not fun anymore :/ So i've got to reveal the truth out yea .

Hmm , so after the lunch went up to shop while Marcus went off first . I get so bored at there because i dont know why , i've got no energy to jump around . Maybe because firstly , im tired . Secondly , im broke . LOL ! I can tell you that my wallet left 17dollars just now which has been bothering me for the whole day . But i managed to went through the whole day , LOL . The same old habit of mine came back again though i know that i've got not much money anymore . I took cab home , LOL ! Send Emmeline back home first then myself , and just because i wanna saved my money for cab , i didnt eat for my dinner so now im very very hungry ! Guess im gonna cooksome noodles for myself later on . Hehe , its been so long ever since i taste my own cooking noodles :P

Alright , such a wordy post , gotta end here if not you guys may get bored ;) And there's some pictures taken just now , because totally no customer ! Bored ttm :(

I was kneeling down at school's toilet sticking my fake eyelash and Emmeline snap it -.-

♥ Sunday, September 05, 2010

:(

Im sick sick sick :(
And , my result was , terrible :/ Anyway , i've caught the movie , HauntedChangi , which was a stupid movie i swear . I thought it was scary or smth , end up i feel like sleeping . LOL . And after my movie my headache is making me so fucked up , so i took cab home . And straight away my fever came to visit me , so end up i didnt eat for two fucking whole days and now im very very hungry :( Its holiday now , and i've got nowhere to go :/ I shall go and get some sleep now , i feel so giddy now . Hehehe :(