♥, Zhenru @undescribablelov-e
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♥ Friday, October 30, 2009
HeyHey people. YuanXin here. Helping Zhenru to post. Her computer broke down :/
O.Zhenru <3
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♥ Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Im sorry , i will just keep quiet ...
Back ! Bused to school with Kristine , school was fun today ! Had post exam activity today , our class had to set up a restaurant :D Taking pictures and playing around . Suppose to end at 1.30pm today , but we end earlier at 11plus . Meet baby first while others went home . Bused to bangkit for contact lens , make me so fed up -.- After that Lrt-ed to cck and then trained to Jurong to meet Gina . Trained to Bedok after that , went over to Gina's another house , she put her things and bused to Tampines to meet Steven . And bused to somewhere that we walked very long -.- Me and Gina was finding job , and then we walk and walk , i was so hot then i keep complaining . Finally found that block , and that place was like , omg . I dont even dare to go in for interview -.- Look so scary , lol :x But in the end cant , cause they was finding 16 and above ? There also didnt write ! -.- Whatever , walked back to bus stop and bused to Tampines 1 to find smth eat . Bought smth and then trained back , now my leg was like so tired . Anw , im tired . Gtg sleep now , going to take report book tmr :/ Nights peeps !
Im sorry , i was just playing and joking around .
I promise , i wont ever disturb you again .
I wont joke with you anymore ,
i will just keep quiet whenever im with you .
I know , im irritating .
I wont harrased you anymore .
♥ Monday, October 26, 2009
Baby , Happy 1st Monthsary !
Same routine , went to school alone . Meet Gina and Yuanxin at back gate and walk in to school together . Went to perade square , keep on laughing non stop cause gina asked stupid question -.- After that went back to class , free period , and then went up to AVA room had a talk of taking which subject next year . Then went back to class , had recess . Ate and sat at concourse , went back to class after that . Free period all the way , till last lesson , went to AVA room again , but is free period too . Chat and played there , 12.05pm release . Didnt manage to meet baby today ): He's too tired and sleeping like a pig . Bused to lot with Gina , Jane , Steven and Darren , bought things eat and waited to meet kristine . She came , and awhile later i went back home . Im off to bathe now (: Just to post as people saying my blog is dead -.- Bye :D
Baby , Happy 1st Monthsary ! :D
Thanks for always being there with me when i need you .
Thanks for always being so caring and thoughtful .
Thanks for always giving me the best .
Thanks for always treating me with your love and care .
I always felt touched when you came all the way down to orchard just to sent me home ,
no matter how tired you are .
I'll hold you in my arms and wont let you go ,
I'll love you with all my heart .
Baby , thanks for everything , iloveyou .
♥ Friday, October 23, 2009
I want new phoneeeeee !
Back to posting :D Went to school alone , as Kristine was with Gina . I was so damn tired in the morning , and almost falling asleep in bus :/ Reached school , meet others and then had blah blah blah and went back to class . Got back my science paper , and it was better than my expectation ._. I thought i would get like 20 or 30plus . But i've got 42.5 over 100 ? But overall i still fail ): Sigh . Had Geography lesson after that , Steven brough alcohol(Vodka) to school , and let us drink . Laughs , i drank and it was so bitter but had a smell of berry ._. Kristine drank quite alot , and she told us she start to feel giddy . Gina drank alot too , she said her chest feel hot but not giddy at all . Her reaction was so cute ! Kristine drink and she give that kind of "omg , so bitter" face . Gina drink and she had no reaction ._. I drink and had the same reaction as Kristine . Adam drink , and he was acting as if he was drunk -.- , he suddenly push me from behind , i shocked and was going to turn back scold the person as i dont know who pushed me until i turn back . And i saw him going around hit people and acting drunk , so didnt scold and i was laughing away . And i think teacher somehow found out somebody brought alcohol to school , and all of us wanted to drink finish as we will get caught . Kristine , Gina and Adam drink again , and left quite alot , Steven drink it all ._. After awhile , his face was so damn bloody red ! Adam's face too , and Steven had a smell of alcohol -.- Had recess , then after that was mother tongue , but we cant find the key as one of my classmates took it and dont know went to where . But we found it after that , went back to class . And Adam perform his card magic to us . So freaking funny and amazing , especially Gina . Finding lots of excuses to caught Adam's trick . LOL ! Everybody was gathering around beside the table of the four of us , watching Adam perform . And when its last lesson , he end his performance so me and Kristine slept as we were quite tired . Sleep till lesson over at 12.40pm . Walked to bus stop and meet baby , after others went off , then me and baby bused to JP for lunch . I didnt eat b'cause i was so so full :x , went off to slack after that . Around 4plus baby sent me back , reached home , watch tv and sleep awhile . Now posting :D And im going for class chalet on Nov ! :D I want a new phone ): Gonna return the current phone to my friend soon , and i have no phone to use anymore if my father still dont want buy it for me -.- Anw , i had to go bathe now . Bye peeps (:
♥ Thursday, October 22, 2009
Im so HIGH HIGH HIGH ! ~
Okay , its like finally ! I get to board the same bus with Kristine in the morning to inter , LOL ! Abit lame -.- But this really makes my mood gets better :/ Then reached inter , bused to school and meet others . Sat at concourse , and Kristine was teaching and helping Gina wear contact lens . So funny and omg ! Lol . Then had blah blah blah , after that we had to change class for today , went to sec3 class to study instead . History lesson first , played games and etc. After that literature , i passed it ! :D:D:D And i used phone in class , teacher asked me go out and wanna talked to me -.- Talked and talked , Kristine and others keep disturbing the teacher when she's talking to me outside the class . HAHA ! Heheh , recess , and somehow im abit too straight forward :x English after that , i passed it too ! xD Then suppose to be maths lesson , but dont know why no teacher came , so whole class were running outside the class like mad -.- Oh , and when i checked my phone . I saw baby's msg ! I was so damn super duper high that i jump and shout around in the class . Lol , i know im mad . Then 12.40pm release , meet baby awhile outside school , bused to Bangkit with Gina , Kristine , Steven , Jane and Darren while baby went home . Just to collect my contact lens -.- Lol , Gina said i should be honoured , one person take contact lens and so many people follow . LOL ! Hmm , the person took almost one hour to teach me how to rinse the lens , wear it and took it out . While others went to eat , i feel so damn uncomfortable when i wore it , like something stuck in my lower part of my eyes . I know how to wear , but dont know how to take out -.- LOL ! After that the person said need to change the lens as it was unsuitable for me , and collect it next week ._. Bused back to inter , then bused to Kristine's house . I heavent eat my lunch yet , so she cooked noodles for me :D Then went into her room , chat and chat , teach Gina how to wear contact lens too because from morning Kristine helped her wear , not so successful , in class she wear it herself , when she wipe away the tears from her eyes , the contact lens went straight up inside to her eyes . And me and Kristine was so panicked that we kept omg , wait here and there and say close and open eyes -.- Lol , so not success too . After that she know how to wear it in a short time :D But look abit scary as if like she's gonna cry with her romantic violet colour lens :x After that they went to other place while me , Jane and Steven went home seperately . Reached home , father was at home and he started to say about my Maths and History . My classmates told me that teacher gonna take MYE's result and pull us up ? Im so so happy ! Cause both of my Maths and History passed in MYE . And 26Oct gonna take our report book and see whether we can be promote anot , im scared :x Hope i can be promote uh ? :D:D:D Baby still sleeping like a pig , and and , i heavent bathe yet :x Gtg bathe now ! Bye peeps ! :D
♥ Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Disappointed
My results are tad bad , i thought i would pass my History , i studied so hard for this fcuking subject , and this is what i get . I got 40.5/98 for my History , wtf is this . I thought i would pass it , and how i wish teacher had marking error or whatever . Im so disappointed of myself , i dont even have the face to go home . I've got 45/100 for Maths , 20/100 for Geography . WHAT IS THIS ?! I know my Geography failed for sure , i depends on my Maths , History , Mother Tongue and Literature . Now both of it had fail , i will be retain i guess . I was so excited to see my History results , and when i got it , i wish that time could turn back , so that i wont know the marks and i can do the paper all over again . But what done is done , nothing could change the fact . Once i saw my marks , and i went back to my seats , all i do was sleep and sleep after getting back all my papers . And i wished that i wont wake up forever , i put in so much effort for this year , and i cant believe it . I wanted to cry , but i cant cry out . Sigh , meet Kristine after school as she didnt went to school , went to lot's PH as lunch . I pulled Kristine behind and i told her " kristine , i thought i can pass my history ... " And i burst out crying at lot , i cant face my parents , who trust me so much finally . Went to PH had our lunch , my dad called me , and i told him everything , i can hear that he's disappointed of me , he told me that he's so disappointed , he told me i comfirm retain , he told me wth happen to me , he told me he thought i could pass it . He told me alot of things , and i cried again . I felt that im such a failure as their daughter , i told my mother that i will pass and showed it to her . And now .. , i cant . I failed , went over to tw as Gina wanna buy her contact lens . I was pulling a long face all the way , and i walked back home alone from tw to yt . I was thinking of how to face my parents , thinking of what should i do if i retain , thinking of those effort i've put in so much , thinking of the marks i get back , thinking of lots of things . And finally i reached home , i didnt talk much today , i went in my room , sat on my bed . And i thought , when will baby be coming back , why did time pass so slow , i miss him , i need him so badly now . After that went in to my parents room and sleep , and i dont know why , i had a bad bad bad dream . I dreamt that nobody ever care for me anymore , clique was leaving me alone , baby request for a break up . What a stupid dream is this , and i told myself this is only a dream , I woke up , i called kristine immediately , she didnt pick up . And i started to have wild imagination myself , and slowly i fall asleep . My grandmother came in , and off the air-con , i was so damn fed up that i woke up and shouted at her . And then i on the air-con again , after awhile , my brother wanted to fight with me over food , as i wanted to eat it as dinner . So i woke up again and scolded him , he cried . Of course i dont give a damn to it , everybody provoke me when im in the bad mood , friends are around me to encourage and comfort me . Till now i still dont wanna talk to my brother , and my sister , went to download dont know what programme in my msn . And now my msn look so ugly , i feel like killing her , i scolded her too . Yea , i scolded almost everybody in my house . First time , i felt so shamed of myself . I dont want to retain , my eyes are so swollen now . I need a shoulder , baby , faster come back ):
♥ Monday, October 19, 2009
I will be waiting for you to come back :D
Didnt post for ytd , as im lazy ? :/ Same routine anw for ytd . Mother last minute call me and asked me go down to FE -.- I was so fed up as i plan to sleep longer . Lol , so no choice and went down at around 3plus . And 8plus father drove us to Bugis , Elaine was a joker ! I was laughing like mad when she keep disturb my brother . And we had some gossips too :D Around 10 father drove us home , reached home , bathe and etc. On tv and after that called baby to chat . Chat till 12plus and went to sleep , and today he was going for his overseas camp ): I tio bomb by my father ? -.- He told me that he was going out at 1oam , so i woke up at 8 just to get prepared as im very very slow . Now is 9.45am and he heavent wake up . Wth -.- Going FE again later , mother gone oversea too . Tomorrow will be going to school , result releasing alrd :/ Gtg eat now , i heard my father waking up alrd ! :D Bye peeps !
Baby , i will be waiting for you to be back alright ! :D
&' 6 more days !
♥ Sunday, October 18, 2009
I just need you to stay by my side ,
Back home ! :D Woke up and prepare . Father drove me to FE , and i was so tired+boring at FE till i fell asleep . Around 8plus cab to tw find baby , he cant fetch me back from FE cause he's injured ): So went to meet him instead , slacked till 9plus and cab home . Baby accompanied me back :D He's going his sec3 overseas camp soon ): I wonder can i meet him tmr D: Anw , i suddenly miss Gina.C and Kristine.G very much -.- Lol ! Honoured right Gina.C ?! :D Alrights , im off to find things eat alrd . Lol , im hungry ._. Nights !
♥ Saturday, October 17, 2009
I need the courage to love you ,
Back to posting (: Went FE today , and that girl above force me to take picture with her when she told me she dont like to force people -.- What kind of logic is this . Lol . I was so boring at there , called baby chat . Went back at 8plus alone , trained back . And i cannot take the banglah smell ! Wth , i know im being racist . But but but , ONE GROUP of them standing beside me , coming near and near -.- And i was standing further and further , the smell was , arghhh -.- Called Gina and complaint to her , after that call baby and complaint again -.- Trained to cck , meet my mother and bused back tgt . Slept at 1plus , im going FE again tmr . Oh, i wish my mother not going FE with me :/ So i can meet baby . * Laughs ! :D
Baby , i miss you ):
♥ Friday, October 16, 2009
为了你 , 我可以什么都不要
Back back ! :D Im so bored ! ): Woke up at around 1pm just now , actually wanted to go out with Gina and Kristine , but i too sudden alrd , they alrd outside and i just woke up -.- So stayed at home instead , but meet baby at 6plus at lot . Trained to batok to eat , after that bused to 417 to wait for baby's friends . Slacked awhile and 9plus cab home , while baby ton-ing with his friends . And now im so so so bored ! Tmr going to FE help out (: And and , my brother was so irritating ! Kept pestering me to take photo with him -.- Anw , gtg watch my show now , bye ! :D
♥ Thursday, October 15, 2009
I dont wanna be like this ,
EOY finally over ! Bused to school with Kristine and baby today , and we were late . I suppose to be late for third time , but it only wrote two times ._. Ha , but good , dont need call parents . My father mother still sleeping ! :D Had bag checked and everything , went back to class have my last paper ! Art ! I almost cant finish it , but i still manage to do finish , and left 15mins . Whole class was so mad+crazy when the teacher walk out of the class . They were kicking chairs and tables around -.- Lol . After school others went to Jurong safra , while i meeting baby . Went over to his friend's house , around 12plus bused to inter . Baby went home , and i stayed there till 2pm and waited for one of mother's worker come . Bused to Panjang and order for my contact lens , its like oh-finally -.- And im so so tired ): Around 3 bused back , then bused home alone . Reached home , on com and post . And and and , where should i go tmr ? ): I dont wanna stay at home ! So boring ! ): Anw , gtg bathe now (: Heavent bathe since i came back -.- Lol . Bye peeps ! :D
♥ Wednesday, October 14, 2009
I Miss You So ,
Had Science paper today , cmi ._. I do awhile then sleep awhile , wake up do few questions and sleep again -.- But i slept at 10plus ytd eh , maybe is i didnt eat ? So no energy to do -.- Suddenly having stomachache this morning , that cause me almost faint but i bear with it as i cant just faint like that ? :x Lucky Kristine took cab came and cab to school . Had paper and released at 10am , planned to go Jurong Safra , but in the end didnt , and went to Bugis with Kristine , Steven , Gina and her mother instead . Bused to Gina's house first , had lunch at her house and around 1plus went out , bused to Clementi to meet Steven . We made him wait almost one hour -.- Then trained to Bugis , went to find my father to get money , and shopping here and there . &' my phone spoilt , the screen suddenly black out -.- Wth . Fed up , went to KFC for lunch , saw Yuying and co. After eat finish went to toilet , awhile later they need go home , so walked back to meet Yuying as i dont want so early go home . Meet baby at around 5pm , bused to tw and slack till 9plus . Baby was going to sent me home , but saw my mother at inter , so asked him go home ): Had last paper tmr , art . Hope i can colour finish -.- Cause i hate colouring . LOL ! Gtg sleep now , if not tmr really cant finish my paper . Nights peeps !
♥ Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Im contented .
Didnt post ytd , as i was lazy , busy and tired ._. Anw , had literature paper ytd , was quite easy . Trained to school with Kristine today , so damn fed up in the morning due to the rainy day and some people -.- Reached class , whole class was like waiting for the both of us ? :x Then had Maths paper 2 today , er , average ? At least know how to do most of the questions , and just nice i finished it on time . I put down my pen and the teacher said stop writing x.x , no time for me to sleep leh . Lol , first paper that i didnt sleep at all . LOL ! Tmr will be science paper , i feel like giving up on this paper , teacher said it was hard , and i had no interest in science ._. Should i give up on this paper tmr ? Released at 9.15am today , so freaking early :D Sat at concourse awhile , then went off with Yuanxin and Bokmay . But i meeting baby outside school , so went seperate way with them . Slack and blah blah blah , went home around 2plus . And my bloody phone spoilt , so many buttons cant press -.- Cant msg at all ! So anything just call me , dont use msg , thankyou ! :D Went around asking for spare phone , and finally one person has it . From tmr onwards can msg me alrd :D Anw , im crazy over shopping alrd ._. I need to do a shopping list ! And i need contact lens badly ):
Things i wanna buy :
1. Shoe
2. Tops ( the one i saw at FE and some other places )
3. Mango Top
4. Contact lens ( I drag very long alrd -.- )
5. Bottoms
6. Accessories
7. Wallet
8. Bags ( Should i get a vintage bag from my father ? :/ )
9. Handphone ( Hell , i cant live without phone ! )
Hmm , should i buy smth from M)phosis too ? :/ I want shopping !!!!!!!!! ):
♥ Saturday, October 10, 2009
You were my only , dont leave me alone .
[Edited]
Back to posting , will be having tuition later on , and after tuition i will be going out . So i think i will be continue posting when im back (: Anw , passerby ! Continue tag leh ! :P My blog damn f****** long no passerby liao leh . LOL ! *Suaku -.-
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Alright , im back ! :D Get attitude at tuition just now -.- Wth . After tuition straight went out , im so damn unhappy about tuition teacher attitude me alrd , and just nice my damn phone spoilt . Cant on , so cant contact others . Went up to my place again to call Gina , made me so damn fed up that i threw my phone -.- After that went out again , was going to took bus , but due to my phone , so took cab go . Reached library , and suddenly my phone okay alrd , i was so damn happy+crazy . Steven say Handphone=Zhenru , No Handphone=No Zhenru . LOL ! Chatted at library , was suppose to be studying , but cause chat till too happy , didnt even study at all . But at least i got study one chapter of literature , lol :x After awhile took shelter bus go IMM , got one girl very GL , diao at us -.- Then dont know go tell another girl what thing , then looked back again . Lol , when we get down the bus , all diao her before we go in . LOL ! Wanted to eat LJS , but full . So went up to KopiTiam , full also . So eat MB instead -.- Around 7 plus took shelter bus back with Steven , then trained to cck . Took 190 and bused to tw to meet baby , around 10 bused back home . So damn tired , and should i chiong my literature later ? :x Scared tmr morning cant wake up and sleep during exam and flunk my paper again like my Geography -.- Ah , forget it . Got to go study for my paper tmr , nights people ! :D
♥ Friday, October 09, 2009
So close yet so far
Im going sick soon ): Having flu or whatever , makes me feel so sleepy -.- I was so cold in the morning on bus , my hand was freezing like omgzxc . Anw , im preparing to fail my Geography ._. I was too tired to think of the answers , and i just leave blank . I did half way and slept , for three times -.- I studied till so late , and yet nothing goes into my head at all . The most i can get for Geography was 20+/100 , wth . I heavent start colouring my art prepwork , revise for science and maths paper2 . 4 more papers to go ): Released at 10 today , so damn freaking early , met baby and went to eat with Kristine and others . After that others went home , slack around bus stop for 2 hours -.- , went home after that . I've no mood to crap today , my nose was irritating . Currently waiting for baby to wake up , and should i go out tmr ? ._. Forget it , im hungry , off to find things and eat .
♥ Thursday, October 08, 2009
说不出来的爱
Yoyozxczxc ! :D Had History and Maths paper1 today ! History was okay , i first time did history till so happy :D LOL ! At least my effort didnt gone to waste , studied till 3plus that day . But still , i left some blank ): As i forgot whats the answer alrd , some meaning also forget ._. Maths was omg , i CMI , i left lots of blank . Cause i dont know how to do ! ): I've flung my paper1 , must do well in paper2 :D Tmr's Geography ! Wth , i dont know anything about map ! Heard that English paper1 wasnt quite good , omg -.- Bullshytzxczxc ! End at 11.50am today , waited for baby at canteen with Eunice and co. , as Eunice waiting for Xinyi too . Baby sent me home after that , and now i felt so tired . Maybe going sleep and study for Geography alrd ! Gtg , bye .
♥ Wednesday, October 07, 2009
All i ever wanted is you
Back ! (: Didnt went to school today , as i burnt midnight oil till 3 plus yesterday/today ? Studied History from 10pm plus till 3am plus , first time so hardworking uh ? :x Hmm , felt tired and sleep , wanted to woke up at 4 and continue study , but i was too tired and off my alarm , slept till 7am woke up and saw lots of missed calls and msg . Replied and called back , after that sleep back . Woke up at 11.30am , bathe and etc. Met baby at inter , then bused to school outside to meet Gina and Yuanxin , Steven followed too (: Bused back to inter , went up to library , Gina and others went to eat , ps me lah , i so hungry ._. But baby accompanied me till they came up . Saw Jane and Darren , awhile later they came up , sat with them . Played and joke around , laugh till i stomachache , disturb other people too :D Around 4plus went home , baby sent me home (: Reached home , eat and etc. , then had tuition . So freaking tired -.- Alright , off to study my history now (: Bye !
I finally told you everything i wanted to say ,
i cried , and thinking that im bless enough to have you with me .
That kind of concern you showed me , makes me feel that im important to you .
That kind of love you gave me , makes me feel that i stand the first place in your heart .
That kind of feeling when im with you , makes me feel that i dont want you to leave me .
You will always be there for me whenever i need you , the love we had grow fonder each day .
I dont want to lose you , and i cant afford to .
iloveyou .
♥ Tuesday, October 06, 2009
I'll try whatever it takes to reach for your heart
Back to posting ! (: Woke up and etc. , met Kristine at inter and bused to school together . Was so freaking tired in the morning , raining somemore , makes me feel like sleeping more . Reached school , went back to class as it was raining . Sleep for few mins before next lesson , after that PW , teach us how to use photoshop . Laughs ! I was so "suaku" , i didnt know that actually photoshop is like that , and i keep wanting my mother to buy the download of photoshop dics for me -.- , but actually my desktop alrd had the photoshop programme and i always go open the programme for nothing . At first i listened to instruction and edit photo , but awhile later i was lazy to do it anymore , cause teacher keep walking here and there teaching other people . I leave it for Yuanxin and Syazriyah to play with it . Yuanxin edit till like ohmygodness ! HAHAHA ! And i was damn cold in the computer lab ._. Since i was so cold , then i thought i can sleep till very comfortable , but im not -.- I was shirvering all the way . LOL ! After PW was mother tongue , but teacher didnt come , so free period , took photo with Gina . After MT was Geography , copy some exam format , but due to my eyesight ( I got wear specs , just that i dont want to wear it ) , i cant see clearly , so i sleep till recess . Ate and etc. , went back to class for Science lesson , teacher gave worksheet to do . Actually i was going to do , but i see the question and i dont feel like doing anymore -.- So i sleep again , sleep till lesson over . Had Music , and you can see that i was so hyper in the photo , taking pictures all around :D Hmm , after music had VE , played "Blow Wind Blow" , super funny ! After that had english lesson , but teacher didnt come , so free period . &' i was having moodswing that time -.- , wth . And i felt like crying out , lol . But now awhile later im ok alrd , baby called me chatted awhile while im on my way to home . Took cab back , as baby didnt come fetch me and i lazy to take bus -.- Somehow i had lots of things to tell him , but i dont know how to put it in words ): Anw , changed blogskin too , last time blogskin use very very long alrd , time to change to a plain one :D Gtg bathe now (: Takecare and goodluck for EOY ! :D
I've got lots of thing to tell you ,
but i dont know how to put everything in words .
Baby , i missyou ):